[nayashi]

I'm so afraid that it won't go away.
I'm so afraid that I'll have to live like this forever.
I'm so afirad of always feeling alone
of not feeling anything
of not feeling myself
of not knowing me

Sometimes I think that it would be better to not live at all
than to live like this.

I feel imaginary

 

[sebastian]

Sorry to hear you're feeling particularly blue today nayashi. God knows i've been there. You will feel better though, no matter how bad it seems.

s.

 

[dreamcatcher]

ditto......and i actually feel better than i have for a while but am still scared this is it that i will never truley get over it......i wish i could get a rubber and erase all the memories and thoughts from my mind.

 

[Chris]

Yep. Life sucks.

 

[David]

ditto......and i actually feel better than i have for a while but am still scared this is it that i will never truley get over it......i wish i could get a rubber and erase all the memories and thoughts from my mind.

From The Talented Mr Ripley:

Don't you just take the past and put it in a room, in the basement, then lock the door and never go in there? That's what i do. (Peter: God yes, but in my case, it's probably a whole building) And then you meet someone special, and all you want to do is toss them the key say, 'Open up, step inside.' but you can't. because it's dark. and there are demons. and if anybody ever saw how ugly... if i could take a giant eraser and rub out everything, starting with myself... But you see, the thing is Peter if... if... if... (Peter: no key, huh?)

 

[dreamcatcher]

very good david....i think i locked myself at the wrong side of the door.........and i am banging in the hope someone will find a key and realise me into reality

 

[Guest]

I'm so afraid that it won't go away.
I'm so afraid that I'll have to live like this forever.
I'm so afirad of always feeling alone
of not feeling anything
of not feeling myself
of not knowing me

Holy shit you couldn't have said it any better, makes me feel not so alone, or do I just hope i'll feel that way. anyway, it is these thoughts that are our worst enemy and they are the hardest fu*#ing things to battle, seems to take all of my energy to do so. What gives me hope about the not feeling anything part is that if we can feel alone, scared, depressed, guilty, hopeless than we must be able to feel the other end of the spectrum. Hang in there I'll do the same, I am at my worst ever right now. To end on a positive note, icecream is delicous! :shock: