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Alright, so... here we, here we gooo!
I was livin the good life, yo:
so in loooove.. workin, playin, laughin, lovin, livin.. The Works.. then i wake up one day, an BAM! ... I'd hadda nervous breakdown
Not that I knew what it was at the time, because I certainly did not.
Several months went by…
I could barely get out of bed, I could hardly come out of my bedroom..
shit, just taking our dog out front to go potty was HELL for me me, I mean, I would really have to work myself up to get out the front door, even at 4 AM when all lights were out, life as I knew it was deteriorating before my eyes
Worse came to worse an eventually I left my living situation which included my long-term boyfriend who I was So In Love with, an his two kids.
After several months sleeping on my mom's couch, an writing in my journal day in an day out, as well as going to my doctor every month, I stumbled across some things on Google regarding the symptoms I was having.
- - every single symptom I had was Derealisation as well as Depersonalization!!
From there on, Life is a strange memory…
I woke up bawling my eyes out, looking around me an being So Scared
I cried an cried an cried an cried an cried an cried an cried

feeling like I had never felt before in my whole life, then after two or three months, gradually accepting that there was absolutely no way out of my deranged reality an I had moved past the suicidal stage, which definitely took a hold of me for quite a while… I just pushed forward, many days with HOPE. But Hope is hibernating.. an has not shown it's face in awhile.
I just dunno what to do, do not know who to turn to, which is devastatingly the case for all of us folks.
I wake up each day not wanting to look around, not wanting to see life bc it's becoming more an more out of reach, there's not much to hold onto, just a few familiar fragments throughout the day an for those, i try to be grateful.
I hava mom♥ i hava roof, i have food, i have clothes.. i try so hard to be happy for my blessings an at the same time though, DP/DR is stunting me.. i won't go out with friends, i can't even Imagine any man ever Wanting me again: I've got nothing to offer, I'm existing an that's the end of that. Life's got no meaning, although i TRY to each day to search for some
idk, if ANYONE would care to talk with me or gimme some feedback, that would mean the world.
Thinking of all of u here living the Struggle alongside me????
I was livin the good life, yo:
so in loooove.. workin, playin, laughin, lovin, livin.. The Works.. then i wake up one day, an BAM! ... I'd hadda nervous breakdown
Not that I knew what it was at the time, because I certainly did not.
Several months went by…
I could barely get out of bed, I could hardly come out of my bedroom..
shit, just taking our dog out front to go potty was HELL for me me, I mean, I would really have to work myself up to get out the front door, even at 4 AM when all lights were out, life as I knew it was deteriorating before my eyes
Worse came to worse an eventually I left my living situation which included my long-term boyfriend who I was So In Love with, an his two kids.
After several months sleeping on my mom's couch, an writing in my journal day in an day out, as well as going to my doctor every month, I stumbled across some things on Google regarding the symptoms I was having.
- - every single symptom I had was Derealisation as well as Depersonalization!!
From there on, Life is a strange memory…
I woke up bawling my eyes out, looking around me an being So Scared
feeling like I had never felt before in my whole life, then after two or three months, gradually accepting that there was absolutely no way out of my deranged reality an I had moved past the suicidal stage, which definitely took a hold of me for quite a while… I just pushed forward, many days with HOPE. But Hope is hibernating.. an has not shown it's face in awhile.
I just dunno what to do, do not know who to turn to, which is devastatingly the case for all of us folks.
I wake up each day not wanting to look around, not wanting to see life bc it's becoming more an more out of reach, there's not much to hold onto, just a few familiar fragments throughout the day an for those, i try to be grateful.
I hava mom♥ i hava roof, i have food, i have clothes.. i try so hard to be happy for my blessings an at the same time though, DP/DR is stunting me.. i won't go out with friends, i can't even Imagine any man ever Wanting me again: I've got nothing to offer, I'm existing an that's the end of that. Life's got no meaning, although i TRY to each day to search for some
Thinking of all of u here living the Struggle alongside me????