[CoffeeGirl9]

I can't tell you that enough. I would rather be dead then live one more day let alone one more year with DP. I literally have lost everything. Everything. I just want to die peacefully. DP= death.

Anything is better then living with this awful condition. I can't feel anything. I am completely gone. I might as well be dead.

Sorry I just am at a loss. I have zero help or support. My recent therapist was awful. Meds do nothing. I literally go and do everything even though I have this and nothing helps it. I work. I work out. I eat right.

I don't get it or why i deserve such a horrible horrible condition.

 

[Mannyj715]

when did it start for you ?

 

[CoffeeGirl9]

when did it start for you ?

2009

 

[Mannyj715]

and its just as bad as it was then?

 

[CoffeeGirl9]

and its just as bad as it was then?

Worse and worse but I don't remember. I have ptsd. But i am more gone then I was. I think. You just get tired of constantly fighting for your life. This shouldn't be a thing. Ever ever ever.

 

[CoffeeGirl9]

If you can’t feel yourself what’s the point of going through life? Like who is supposed to experience anything?

 

[Mannyj715]

There's help out there. Were all going through the same exact thing you are even though it may not seem. I feel alone anxious and numb too. I feel that there's nothing i can do to fix this but in reality, I've been in low points before and pulled myself out of it. You have the best support system out there, US! We are in the same boat as you. I smoked weed the other day and that spiraled me down another rabbit hole of DP/DR but don't lose hope. Its normal to catastrophize but your brain is resilient and it will heal

 

[InV]

Like many say suicide is never an option but i can totally understand you. A severe DP/DR is torture. I wanna die too...

 

[Findinghope7]

Did u get it from weed becsuse thats how i got it i wanna die evreyday sometimes

 

[James2368]

[quote name="Autonomic Space Monkey" post="538834" timestamp="1514832217"]In that case, have you thought about seeing Dr Lipov in Chicago & trying the SBG injections?[/

Here is a link to his website:

http://www.mypainchicago.com/dr-lipov.html

It sounds promising......I have not found anyone willing to do it over here....

 

[CoffeeGirl9]

In that case, have you thought about seeing Dr Lipov in Chicago & trying the SBG injections?[/

Here is a link to his website:

http://www.mypainchicago.com/dr-lipov.html

It sounds promising......I have not found anyone willing to do it over here....

I would do anything at this point. But I am guessing it costs a lot of money which I do not have. I am so broke. I can barely work due to this condition. I know I am not alone and that you all are the same. It just feels like life is passing me by and I can't do anything.

 

[CoffeeGirl9]

What do you guys think....say the guy that caused this terror died (no not me killing him even though that’s what he deserves) do you think my dp would go away? Irrationally the thought of him still does a number on me so I pretend he doesn’t exist....but if he doesn’t exist then i don’t either. Thoughts?

 

[James2368]

What do you guys think....say the guy that caused this terror died (no not me killing him even though that's what he deserves) do you think my dp would go away? Irrationally the thought of him still does a number on me so I pretend he doesn't exist....but if he doesn't exist then i don't either. Thoughts?

The guy has to die emotionally for you....then you will come alive again and enter your body....

 

[CoffeeGirl9]

Is my body responding to the thoughts about him? Bc all I feel is anxiety and terror throughout my body. This comes and goes but particularly bad right now.

 

[dope]

You can't give up! Giving up on this would be giving up on yourself and you CANNOT let that happen! Please do message me if you need any help.

 

[Hartigan]

Have you tried EMDR therapy? It's not a complete cure but it can apparently make it 70-90% better.

 

[Mannyj715]

Did u get it from weed becsuse thats how i got it i wanna die evreyday sometimes

how long have you had it

 

[CoffeeGirl9]

Have you tried EMDR therapy? It's not a complete cure but it can apparently make it 70-90% better.

I have a little but I am not "here" enough for any progress.

 

[James2368]

Is my body responding to the thoughts about him? Bc all I feel is anxiety and terror throughout my body. This comes and goes but particularly bad right now.

Feelings/emotions are expressed through your body. Say for example you have a social phobia, everytime you will go to a crowded place your body will physically react, i.e. shallow breathing, light headed etc., in the end you will try to avoid these places and stay at home. Probably the thoughts about this guy and the event happened is causing your body to freak out.

 

[willbarwa]

Sounds to me that you have severe trauma and repressed emotions and memories. When someone's DP is this bad, flushing out emotions and mental barriers usually resolve an underlying pain and thus resolving the DP as well.

DP is just a by-product of all the shit we hold inside. Everything is a process though. It first starts during childhood, then emotions get repressed, then later on in life we are taught to hold in more and more of actual emotions. It's an inner struggle of the ego. But I would be lying if this was only a psychological symptom.

Some DP comes from infections, chemical imbalance, physical head injuries and other things.

You havent tried everything! And for that you cannot allow yourself defeat.

I've gotten a lot better, and what helped me a lot was looking for answrs, methoids, research, and exerise and meditation.