[Guest]

Hi,

To resume my situation, I feel hopeless.

Is that okay?

 

[Guest]

i somtimes wonder whether reading all about DP/DR, anxiety etc on the net is simply opening pandoras box and like you say knowing all the info we initially crave is detrimental in the long run.

nice vent btw, one of the finest...and deserved :wink:

 

[enigma]

i somtimes wonder whether reading all about DP/DR, anxiety etc on the net is simply opening pandoras box and like you say knowing all the info we initially crave is detrimental in the long run.

I doubt it, because all the sensations I experience 24/7/365 today (the entire world like a movie, with me just the audience looking on, not really a part of it all) began way before the net. Way before I knew anything about the condition at all (and about a year before I even knew what it was called).

Karine, don't berate yourself.

I can assure you that you would've been walking around feeling exactly the same right now regardless of what you'd been doing the past two years.

You would've just had a lot more questions regarding what this feeling is, and why it could possibly be.

There's never any harm in seeking information.

It's certainly doing me no harm discovering more about it.

So no, I do not believe that it is a "Pandora's box", and I'd keep coming back to learn all that I could were I you.

Because ultimately, as the old saying goes, knowledge will set you free.

e

 

[Guest]

Seems that I repeat myself. I wrote already the same thing that in the first post.

Ok, thanks.

 

[enigma]

I know I am a pain in the ass, that is why I excuse myself.

You are not (we're all very glad you're back).

Sorry, it's the only place where I can complaint.

Never any need to apologise. This is the only place most of us have to vent and complain.

So vent and complain away.

We're always here to listen.

e

 

[Guest]

Thanks e,

I know it's not everybody who is OK to see me, but hey, it's normal, it's life. I am realistic

But thanks for your kind words.

I really have trouble these weeks with my problem.

Allure

 

[Homeskooled]

Good honest vent, Allure. The downside is - you know all of your options. The upside is - you know all of your options. The problem is - you need to stick to an option. There's lots and lots of things to be hopeful about, but you have to be willing to take a new approach to all of this. You have to be willing to take the mundane, boring approach that other patients have - work with your doctor, and slowly work your way down the list of possible treatment options (which you already know). Give the medicines/therapy time to do their magic. And I mean lots, and LOTS of boring, mundane time. 2 months on any med before you know if it works. Longer for therapy. Any advice you get from people on the internet doesnt matter in the end - only your doctor can actually prescribe something. In the end it is him you have to convince, him you have to listen to, and him you have to work with. But its going to take patience on your part, and the willingness to sacrifice some of your perfectionism. You arent going to find a "perfect" pill. They will all have side effects. You wont find the "perfect" doctor. And it will take a long time for you to feel "perfect". Just have patience and be willing to take the normal approach to all of this. Your lucky that you are intelligent enough to understand most of what you are reading. But it is also your downfall. Most patients are either too sick or not well-educated enough, and are at the mercy of their doctor. But you have to be willing to trust in your doctor eventually, and not random encounters on the internet.

Peace
Homeskooled

 

[dakotajo]

I know you have no respect for what I have to say, but Im going to say it anyway. You have obvious anxiety and depression. You need to get stabilized on an anti-depressant and get yourself weened off the tranquilizers. Tranquilizers should only be used short term because they will only eventually aggravate your depression. I think you are finding that out already.

Joe

 

[Guest]

Hi Joe,

It's not that I don't have respect for what you are saying, it's that we often, very often, don't have the same strong opinions.

I don't want any fight, I liscen and read all posts including yours.

Allure

 

[Kelson12]

Allure,

You have to stop obsessing so much. Pleeeeeeease! You need to try to develop a somewhat "normal" life outside of this board. Janine is the expert on here and she's given you advice time and time again that you need to get out and just live. Allure, if she is the expert, you need to listen to her. Sure venting here and there is okay, but posting over and over again is likely making your situation worse. Because if people don't tell you what you want to hear it makes your anxiety worse. Mental sicknesses take a long time to recover from. But what you have to do is first accept it. Please! Then look around and be thankful for what you do have. You have a beautiful baby and a life that many people in this world would love to have. You need to fight from within and focus it outward as opposed to venting on the board. Find situations that make you happy and can help you focus away from youself. Just do it!

Kelson

 

[Guest]

Je sens que je n'ai pas ma place nulle part dans ce monde. C'est ca le probl?me. Je me sens laiss?e pour compte, par du monde que je ne connais m?me pas, pis ca me rend malheureuse! C'est stupide. Je n'?tais pas cocotte a ce point-la avant. Je ne sais pas ce que j'ai, mais c'est chiant. J'ai si mal, ca fait mal tellement, j'ai l'impression que je ne peux plus m'exprimer sur ce forum, car j'en ai trop dit, J'ai l'air de r?p?ter tout le temps. Les mods sont tann?s de moi, je me sens comme si j'avais tir? trop d'eux, et comme un vampire ?motionnel. Ca me fait de la peine de perdre des suppos?s amis aussi. Je me sens seule et j'ai de la d?pression. Ca ne devrait pas me blesser, ce que les gens disent sur un forum, je ne les connais m?me pas. Ils peuvent ?tre tous fous, on le sait pas. Moi je sais ce que je vaux, je n'ai pas l'air partie, mes amis, ma famille peuvent t?moigner. J'ai pas l'air hagard, je ne travaille pas pour d?pression, pour le moment, et anxi?t?. Mais je suis consciente qu'il y a quelque chose qui ne va pas, et ca me tue a petit feu. Et venir l'exprimer en anglais ici, quand ce n'est pas ma langue, est tr?s difficile. Je ne suis pas idiote, je suis juste dp/dr.

Translate : I feel like I don't belong. I wanted to express myself in my language, sorry, it helps sometimes to vent in our native language.

Allure