[M1k3y]

what if u just said fuck it and smoked a blunt to your head, would that be like mental suicide?

im at a point i just dont give a shit anymore

cant seem to feel any better, ive been at a stand still for 2 months man, i feel so fuckin depressed

sometimes i just wanna say fuck it and just get fucked up like i use to

i have symptoms that r just inhumane man, its either there real, or im just playing tricks on myself

but besides that, i have no personality man, maybe its cus im insecure cus how i am right now

dont want to say anything outlandish so people dont think im crazy

i use to be so confident in my words

man idk

 

[DerealizedDutchie]

2 months isnt really that long to be honest. You're saying that you're feeling depressed? Then that's probably something to start with, can you feel emotions attached to that depression?

I personally think that emotional catharsis is the way to go if you want to be any step closer to yourself. Find a practitioner who can help you with that.

To answer your questions, i think smoking a blunt right now will make you worse for maybe a day or two, but it eventually gets back to the point where you are now. I used to enjoy drinking alcohol, buy when i try some while DPed i dont feel anything at all.. i only get more self-conscious. I cant feel the drunk sensation anymore.

 

[M1k3y]

2 months isnt really that long to be honest. You're saying that you're feeling depressed? Then that's probably something to start with, can you feel emotions attached to that depression?

I personally think that emotional catharsis is the way to go if you want to be any step closer to yourself. Find a practitioner who can help you with that.

To answer your questions, i think smoking a blunt right now will make you worse for maybe a day or two, but it eventually gets back to the point where you are now. I used to enjoy drinking alcohol, buy when i try some while DPed i dont feel anything at all.. i only get more self-conscious. I cant feel the drunk sensation anymore.

i say 2 months cus thats when i stopped taking my medicine in hoping to feel better

ive been fucked for 2 years and 2 months

the only emotions i get is anger cus im stuck in this fucked up situation

angry cus i cant b myself

so frustrating

and just the anxiety and mind games

im to tired to write

im just fucked

and atleast when u smoke weed ur back to were u were at

i get this crazy symptom when i smoke weed

like my paranoia triggers and i feel like my presence just being around others makes them feel weird

as if im giving off this weird vibe to make them feel uncomfortable

and its crazy

cus i literally do nothing

and yet im affecting people around me

i have 2 grams of weed in my car for the past couple of weeks

would of smoked some by now but i just know if i do it ima be paying the consequence after

and thats a hellacious symptom

last time i had to get on medicine to take that symptom away

im sure now it would just take about a week for that symptom to go away

but u never know..

i use to have that symptom 24/7 for months and didnt know how the fuck to stop it

idk man

life fucking blows

ill never be normal again

 

[forestx5]

I smoked a half dozen times after my 1st cannabis trauma. I smoked black hashish, blond hashish, Hawaiian weed, and Thai stick. Each time was a repetitive lesson. That lesson was "no matter how bad things are; things can always get worse".

Is there any feeling quite like hair on fire panic? If there is, I've never felt it. Looking back, I have to appreciate the power of peer pressure. It can make you do the stupidest of things. If you can get older somehow, that situation improves.