I was admitted into a psych ward for three days because my anxiety was so terrible. It was a horrible experience. They were not equipped to handle a person with severe anxiety and derealization. None of the group therapy sessions had anything to do with me or anything I had ever felt. I was so scared that I could barely leave my room and I felt like I was in a dream the whole time. I got to see a psychiatrist who seemed very smart and was nice and changed my meds. He put me on effexor but now I feel so weird I'm terrified again. They also wouldnt let me leave even though i signed in voluntarily. (i was desperate to feep better). So anyways. Effexor. I'm on day 5 and I feel emotionally numb but I can still feel intense fear underneath the numbness and thats somehow even scarier. Also things looks much more crisp and real but I hate it. Its too intense for me. I think Im losing my mind. I still take xanax but idk what the eff for because it doesnt do anything anymore except for stop me from going into withdrawal. I wanted to get off all of my meds but then I started experiencing the worst anxiety I've ever had in my life out of nowhere. (Which is how i ended up in the psych ward). So now I'm trying it again. Round and round in circles I go. I know no one believes me but i swear to god this disease is going to kill me.