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It all started after i smoked a joint (which i've been doing for like 5 years) I just seemed to loose control of my mind and my thoughts, it was like i was a spectator in my own head excpet the thoughts weren't mine or anything i'd usually ever think. My heart was racing and i was shaking uncontrolably. I tried being close with my GF and i couldn't even feel my lower parts or beocme hard at all. I was scared because only a few minutes prior it was fine and i had a hard on. I just thought about it alot after that, scared that i can't preform and can't get it up unless i'm not thinkin about it. It feels like a numbness that i can't kick down there. I became really emotional crying and being afraid of nothing. I thought to myself it's just the pot and this will all go away when i come down, but it didn't. I also had and still have an anxious feeling i just can't shake and i can't stop thinking about it. I'm worrying and emotionally supercharged with fear and anxiety and i've been crying for no reason. Now that i'm not high i've regained control of my mind although the anxious feeling remains and i also have no desire to eat. I thought i was going crazy until i remembered my roommates GF had an experience like this, i talked to her and compared the feelings and was relieved to find out that i wasn't going crazy, and there was a support system in place. Anyway if this sounds firmiliar to anything that's happened to you pls do tell. I'll post more as i feel it, pls offer me some support as i will be glad to offer it in return. Thanx
 
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by the way, i'm only 21 and i don't feel like myself, i just hope i'm not going crazy and that this feeling of unrest will go away.
 
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could you compare the out of body experience or feeling of not being there to my feeling of being a spectator in my own mind and having no control over my thoughts? mind u it was only this bad while i was high.
 

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Jeffman I think we spoke in the chatroom but not sure. Im going through the same shit. Not feeling real, not having the same feelings for loved ones. It just hurts. Yeah I'm only 16, so it sucks so much, things that make me feel a bit better are, concentrating on a task for a while, like i work 2 hours in the evening, that gives me some relief. Umm, excercise works a bit. yeah and for some reason im way worse in the morning than the night. dont quite know why.

Cheers Dan
 
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