[Brainsilence02]

I want to but I can't express myself (talk)

There is something that I think I want to say, but I can't find it.

There is something wrong about everything, but I can't say what it is. I am not even sure if there is something wrong (I don't trust my self upon this feeling).

I am a music and computer jukie, and my mind is empty.

Concentration is a luxury.

I don't trust my sorrow for beeing real. Narcisism hits me when in sorrow, maybe that's why. I don't always trust my happyness for beeing real.

The veil between the two worlds is there, seperating me from something else that I once remember how it was.

A stealthy mechanism is preventing me from making other people understand, or at least, that's what I think.

I am not in depression because I laught (not right now though), I don't know if I am on DP, and I am assuredly in Narcisism.

 

[Scattered]

Yes. I don't know if I completely understand that post but I get the basic idea. Its always hard for me to communicate my ideas. I normally simply shut off and ignore the world because of my inability to understand it or to express myself to others. Its a horrible situation to be in, a person who feels many things but since the words just aren't there you can't connect.

 

[peacedove]

I want to respond to all these posts I relate to, but it's too damn difficult to type what's in my head.

 

[eclecticsheep]

i know exactly what you mean, friends talk to me and all i can say is uh huh uh uh... uh huh... i think it is because everything i think of is a scream for help. and no i don't want to share that, the pain.
my mind is empty i watch tv just to keep it rolling, preventing it from shutting down. no ideas of my own no, no talks to make about life happiness, pain and all these things i don't have. now that i write about it, it does make sense that my mind is empty.