[flowingly]

I've just recently heard the word "depersonalization" for the first time. At the start of my DP, I used to think MY "reality" was how life really was, and that everyone else was just not sensitive and aware enough. Then my DP got really overwhelming. One night I was just searching online through mental illness sites, and read about depersonalization. It blew my mind that there were others like me. A part of me was glad that I was not alone, but another part felt awful that others were going through similar things. Suddenly, I was no longer the one who I thought was normal, I had this site telling me what I felt was a mental illness. I had a difficult time wrapping my mind around that-- that afterall, it was ME who was not "normal."

I remember reading about mental illness in high school and college, and now here I am, going through it, being told that what I thought was reality was actually a disorder.

I felt like I was in the movie The Miracle Worker, heh. If anyone's seen it...

 

[Sojourner]

Row, row, row your boat
Gently down the stream.
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
Life is but a dream.

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From an early age I took the lyric to that children's song quite seriously, wondering about it. Then I grew up.

 

[ret]

Yeah I used to think everyone else was weird.

 

[flowingly]

Row, row, row your boat
Gently down the stream.
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
Life is but a dream.

I had that rhyme in my head all day after reading it, haha

 

[flowingly]

Yeah I used to think everyone else was weird.

It was a huge life-changing moment for me when I realized that it was me who was...different. How did you deal with it?

 

[ret]

Dunno.

There's not much I can say really. Sucked it up.