[enigma]

Of my recent bouts with death anxiety.

Upon reflection, I believe it's related to the fact that there's so little time left for me and yet so much I haven't done.

That's the true dread: not that it will end, but that it will end with so much unfulfilled.

The more time passes (and it's just screaming by at an alarming speed now), the less hope there is that any of these things (and what they are specifically isn't the point here) will ever be realized.

That's what really makes my blood run cold.

I only have one chance at everything, afterall, but time is quickly running out for me.

That is the real source of my anxiety these days, not death itself.

There's no longer any confusion in my mind about this.

e

 

[Sojourner]

Why is time quickly running out for you? Have you been diagnosed with a terminal illness?

 

[enigma]

Why is time quickly running out for you? Have you been diagnosed with a terminal illness?

At my age, who needs a terminal illness for time to be quickly running out?

e

 

[Guest]

At my age

Which is...?

 

[Sojourner]

You're just a pup, Niggy.

 

[enigma]

At my age

Which is...?

43

You're just a pup, Niggy.

For short, please call me "e" (all modified forms of "enigma" tend to have a rather unfortunate sound to them).

ty,

e

 

[Monkeydust]

So now that you know this is the source of at least some of your anxiety, I guess you have no excuse but to at least try to fulfill whatever goals you feel you should accomplish. No excuses allowed lol.