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So let me briefly explain how my life has been going downhill just because of a simple mistake.

1 month and 2 weeks ago I was kinda drunk then i took 3 puffs of Spice (k2). then after a few minutes i blacked out. i was stuck in a thought loop, couldnt control my body, seen the footage from the security cameras, i was freaking out but i didnt know anything until i have seen the footage. it was hell and it lasted like an hour or 2 at max but for me it was like 12 hours lets say.

i woke up in my bed, my friend had slept with me. he told me i threw up a lot on our way home and i was talking nonsense. since then i dont feel the same.

i remember that i thought im in a dream, but that lasted like 2-3 days, then i became extremely anxious, and close people looked unfamiliar to me. like my girlfriend, my home, everything.

when i woke up its like i didnt live before.

first week was terrible. it was confusing, blurry, couldnt sleep at night, vivid dreams, waking up every 2 hours.

life had no point. a few days after i was at a party, and i remember having a lot of existential thoughts and vision blur. i was asking myself whats the point of having fun, i felt EXTREMELY detached from there. like my body was there but my mind not.

now (i think) im much better (going to gym, taking vitamins etc) but im still anxious. i dont have that vision blur anymore but i have weird obsessions and i feel so detached sometimes. i know everything is real and im not dreaming but i just feel detached from reality. like im on autopilot.

i think i became hyper aware or something. i had weird obsessions. first i was obsessed about the fact that i am SOMEONE, that i have a body, that we are in a society where everyone controls a body. it felt like i was going crazy because i would never have such questions before.

i have 0 motivation, i'm skipping university. with my friends i seem to be happy, i am pretty much like before but i dont really feel like im there anymore.

i dont know what to do...i'm seeing a therapist but that doesnt seem to help. its just a waste of money i think. they have so little experience with this stuff.

i still dont get good sleep. better than i used to get it 1 month ago though. i have a lot of dreams, not as vivid as they used to be but still.

i dont even enjoy sitting at the computer anymore.

sometimes i feel like im trapped in my body.

every activity i do seems to be a routine to what i used to be. it seems that the man that i was has died 1 month ago..

i dont wanna go on pills. i dont want to be addicted to benzos. i have never taken any medicine for my mental health before. never had sleep problems...was just a normal 21 years old guy.

i live in regret every day because i was so happy with my life.
 

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but i find it weird because i have no visual symptoms. i find it impossible to recover from since its in my mindset already. this is so stupid i swear to god.
 

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Hate to berate you on this but you should have known not to mess with K2.

K2 had a humble start but since then it has sunk into the lowest levels of dung. Its' not even weed, all just industrial chemicals.

I won't judge however. We all have a reason to want to do something.

What matters now is recovery and truth be told, it will take longer for you to recover since it was induced by some heavy stuff.

I have heard that Kappa-opioid agonist do very well in blocking the Kappa -opioid receptor, limiting or inhibiting nitric oxide buildup in neurons.

Anyway, you're gonna have to do some research and believe me researching and learning take off your mind from this condition.

The irony is that when my DP first began I researched a lot about DP, and in those moments I was in the "here and now" and didnt realize I had DP.

If you want to know what has helped me. Let me know I have a post regarding possible causes but I also have numerous treatments and techniques, some whihc I havent tried yet.
 

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Hate to berate you on this but you should have known not to mess with K2.
K2 had a humble start but since then it has sunk into the lowest levels of dung. Its' not even weed, all just industrial chemicals.

I won't judge however. We all have a reason to want to do something.

What matters now is recovery and truth be told, it will take longer for you to recover since it was induced by some heavy stuff.
I have heard that Kappa-opioid agonist do very well in blocking the Kappa -opioid receptor, limiting or inhibiting nitric oxide buildup in neurons.

Anyway, you're gonna have to do some research and believe me researching and learning take off your mind from this condition.
The irony is that when my DP first began I researched a lot about DP, and in those moments I was in the "here and now" and didnt realize I had DP.

If you want to know what has helped me. Let me know I have a post regarding possible causes but I also have numerous treatments and techniques, some whihc I havent tried yet.
Wont judge huh? Interesting. It would seem by your first sentence that this is nearly contradicting yourself. On a forum full of people with drug induced life changing problems, you should know better than to make some snide ass remark like that. K2/spice is extremely dangerous, but its a synthetic drug like so many others, including MDMA, which is also neurotoxic. It never had "humble beginnings" and its ALWAYS been "industrial chemicals" much like other desginer drugs, such as MDMA. Being that it is, or was, a readily available drug that gets you high, I dont think its too much of a stretch to see why someone would use it, especially if they had never heard of any horror stories beforehand. Going off track now but the attempt at ostracizing those who have used the drug before is laughable, especially when you consider all of the other drug induced cases on here.

As for OP, I also developed my issues due to synthetic weed usage, and yes it sounds like dp/dr exactly.
 

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It's so interesting to read all these stories on here which sound so much like mine. I too started feeling this way after smoking some "really good dank" about 9 years ago. It could have been synthetic, who knows? Anyway, I think what we experience is like PTSD flashbacks where the dissociation you experienced during that trip was so intense, it acts as a traumatic event. If it's any encouragement to you, I rarely get episodes any more, and I can almost rationalise what is happening so it is less scary and intense. Although the event in my case was started by drug use, I continued smoking week for maybe another 5 years and also tried other drugs like MDMA. The one drug that I can say makes it worse for me though is alcohol. I exclusively have dissociative episodes when I'm hungover nowadays. If I didn't drink maybe I could say I'm "cured" lol. But I do enjoy having a drink every now and then and as long as I recognise the relation to why I feel that way, it's not so bad.
 
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