Hey guys, this is my third post, i think... so how do i start. I'M LINVING IN FEAR. I have been suffering from this for about a year and i'm at my lowest point. I cant recognize anything, like i know this is my home, this is my family, these are my friends, but it doesnt f***** feel that way. It doesnt feel like this is my room, i dont feel like myself, i dont know who i am and it feels like everyday its gettin worse, it feels like im losing myself everyday more. I fear that im gonna forget myself and forget all my enviorment, my family, my friends, my girlfriend. I'm f***** terrified of schitzophrenia, like literally if someone mentions it i get anxious, i fear that im gonna start seeing and hearing things, even tho i don't and never have, i only have mind chatter at night right before falling assleep, i have racing thoughts and my brain won't shut up thinking, but at the same time i have a blank mind, i dont even know how to describe it, i feel like im losing it. Everything looks so surreal. My short term memory is so bad,at least it feels like it,i can remmember things, im a very good student and very good at math, studying civil engineering, i can remmember lectures but it feels like a dream, like that never happened, or it happened a long time ago or to someone else. Please someone give me an advice, i'm really scared of going psychotic, it feels like everyday its worse.
I have visual issues too, visual snow, blurry vision, afterimages.
Are these part of dp? Or this is really something else...
Your response would be much appreciated.
I have visual issues too, visual snow, blurry vision, afterimages.
Are these part of dp? Or this is really something else...
Your response would be much appreciated.