[Imagine]

My mind is complete mush, I really fear I'm slipping into something more here, Psychosis?

I really don't know what to do with myself right now, I can't even sit in a dark silent room without the feeling of an oncoming eruption of of total mental dysfunction.

Maybe my brain is lacking oxygen.

I don't know so much is running through my thoughts and quickly dissappearing, I'm tottally fucked right now and feasr for my sanity.

It really does feel as though my mind is reseting itself every few seconds.

I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do, I DON;T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

 

[Guest]

Make it take you over man.
don't fight it.
fighting only makes it worse.

I promise that you will get better..and I assure you that you aren't losing your mind. Not a chance. Trust me, I thought I was dead there for a little while.

Accept that fear, and the fear will go away!

 

[SillyPutty]

Do you have any medication?

I know wome preople are reluctant but I've been there, ready to call the crisis center!! Like, either shoot me or knock me out. I can't take anymore.

I use lorazepam (ativan) for fast action.

I'll pray for you.

 

[Imagine]

I'am on the highest dose of Citalopram (Celexa/Cipramil)

60mg.

 

[SillyPutty]

I'm sorry I don't know anything about any meds except what I'm on.
(Celexa/Cipramil)
Is that a fast acting benzo (I think that's what they call em') like the Ativan or more like Paxil (I take that also) but I still need the ativan from time to time and I deffinately needed it in the begining, paxil takes awhile to work.

 

[mcsiegs]

I agree with Silly Putty - at times the SSRIs just don't work, and you need to supplement really bad days with a benzo.

I take Paxil as well on really bad days. 1 mg of that will get you VERY relaxed...trust me.

 

[Guest]

turn on the tv. as much as its blamed for dulling peoples' mind, it seems to bring me back to reality faster than anything.

 

[Guest]

My mind is complete mush, I really fear I'm slipping into something more here, Psychosis?

I really don't know what to do with myself right now, I can't even sit in a dark silent room without the feeling of an oncoming eruption of of total mental dysfunction.

Maybe my brain is lacking oxygen.

I don't know so much is running through my thoughts and quickly dissappearing, I'm tottally f--- right now and feasr for my sanity.

It really does feel as though my mind is reseting itself every few seconds.

I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do, I DON;T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

I've had this - mainly the last time I did some pot (Never again) and also when I've benn very anxious and depressed about things going in my life and in my head.

I promise it won't last though. I wish I could offer advice but unfortunately I cope just as badly as anyone else.

 

[Imagine]

This has only progressed in the past 24 hours, I can't talk to my parents, too dream like, I can't rest my head, thoughts have a mind of their own.

How long can these episodes last, like when you feel THIS IS THE WORST ITS EVER BEEN.

Last year I remember experiencing this for 3 months but it wasn't as extreme and disabling, this is affecting me physically also, I can't be bothered to even walk and I feel a weird sensation on the left side back of my head, as if strained, tense.

Depersonalization seems to affect me alot more than derealization but both of them seem to be using my brain as a playground right now.

Extremely mind f***ed.

 

[Imagine]

 

[terri*]

Imagine,

This ( and I mean the bad crap like you are enduring now ) can last as long as you let it, believe it or not. Try, try, try to get out of your head. You are obsessing and feeding your dp/dr all the stuff it needs to keep going. Start doing some relaxation and distracting stuff. This down in the bowels of hell thing can pass if you redirect all your anxiety about how awful it is and how overwhelming it is. It is this high anxiety that is keeping you this messed up.

After having this for a long time, I still find I can go down in to this depths of hell type of thinking. It is triggered by something that brings me some form of angst and I just start the downward spiral. It is then a matter of fighting the bastard off and coming back to the surface. Stay strong.

Wishing you well.
Most sincerely,
terri

 

[Martinelv]

This makes me so sad, especially as I have no wise words to say. The human mind, unlike the body, seems to have an endless capacity for suffering.

But, to repeat the others on this post, you can get better, you will get better. It can be done. I've done it, Janine has done it, millions of people have recovered from dissasosiative disorders.

In my own opinion however, I disagree about letting it 'wash' over you. Fight. Fight and scratch this filth until your last breath. But, each to their own. Whatever works is fine in my book.

 

[person3]

I sort of agree w/Martin, in the sense that you should go out and do everything you would normally do, because staying home with this is a BAD idea.

BUT...don't "fight" it in the sense of trying to master it or figure it out. "Face" it by continuing to do the things you would normally do.

also, thinwhiteduke:

turn on the tv. as much as its blamed for dulling peoples' mind, it seems to bring me back to reality faster than anything.

agreed. Often I would dis movies or tv because oh why waste my time on that stuff, what's the point? But often times when I'm in a bad mood I go to the movies alone. I see a great movie, I feel much better afterwords, and I learn a few things about life from the movie. and sometimes I have a good laugh. Great distraction! Easier than books for me, I don't do books.

 

[Martinelv]

BUT...don't "fight" it in the sense of trying to master it or figure it out. "Face" it by continuing to do the things you would normally do.

Yes, that's a better way of putting it.