[kchendrix]

A lot of times I will come here to bitch to get something off of my chest. I decided I wasn't going to that, because today I was going to count my blessings, I have a great job, good co-workers, My parents are both still alive, I have a great bunch of friends, good kids, good healthy grandchildren, I have been given a lot and even though I don't always see things in the clear shiny NORMAL way, even though I often feel like crap, I am able to observe, able to communicate able to touch able to buy my grand kids toys, talk to my son who is going in the Navy on the phone, I maybe disconnected but at least I am cognative. I may question who am I sometimes, but I always know the anwer. SO even in the darkest hole of this pit, there are reasons to believe, reasons to hope , reasons to live. Even when we look at are hands and try to analyze , think about what really is important, those people, places and things you really have in your life.. Find one thing each moment to be thankful for .

Have a great evening everyone

 

[Scattered]

Sometimes in the midst of great anxiety I try to be spontaneously positive. I feel that its such an effort to experience depression, anxiety, etc that at sometimes I'm able to just let go and feel good for the sake of feeling good. sometimes it works amazingly well and other times it fails completely because I'm unable to even fathom the concept of "normal" or "happy".

I'm glad you're glad. have a nice day. :wink: