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Hi everyone,
I'm in a very bad place right now and I'm totally freaked out. I think I'm having severe dp/dr or maybe mild psychosis. I'm not sure.

Anyway I'd like some insights...
8 weeks ago I suddenly started getting thoughts about being transgender. They came out of nothing and becamse super distressing and scary. I sought professional help and they diagnosed me with OCD. After 7 weeks I suddenly got very bad dp/dr. I am familiar with this throughout my life. I've had it pretty bad when I was 20 (35 now) for over a year and it went away with meditation and therapy. Over the years I experienced short relapses that would take a few days or weeks. Nothing really bad.

But this time it's soooooo bad. I am really beginning to doubt if reality is even real and I'm super scared all day. I'm scared of my own consciousness and scared of other people. I don't even feel good among my own family anymore :( I have a lot of intrusive thoughts about life and existence and the only way out seems to kill myself. And I don't want that because I used to be very happy. I just feel like there isn't a place in the world where I can relax anymore. It's like my mind is failing to comprehend existence/reality/living/other people. I went to the doctor yesterday because I couldn't take it anymore and she prescribed me a very small dose of an antipsychotic medicine called Olanzapine. For a week, to help me get through days. But I am scared to take it. I'm scared things will get worse. Advice is greatly appreciated.
 

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Doe is even rustig joh. Niemand weet hoe je op medicatie zal reageren, zelfs de dokters niet. Het is proberen of niet proberen echt waar. En de keuze is volledig aan jou, kans dat het beter word is 50/50. Als je het nu niet meer aan kan, zou ik het gewoon proberen toch.
 

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Hi everyone,
I'm in a very bad place right now and I'm totally freaked out. I think I'm having severe dp/dr or maybe mild psychosis. I'm not sure.

Anyway I'd like some insights...
8 weeks ago I suddenly started getting thoughts about being transgender. They came out of nothing and becamse super distressing and scary. I sought professional help and they diagnosed me with OCD. After 7 weeks I suddenly got very bad dp/dr. I am familiar with this throughout my life. I've had it pretty bad when I was 20 (35 now) for over a year and it went away with meditation and therapy. Over the years I experienced short relapses that would take a few days or weeks. Nothing really bad.

But this time it's soooooo bad. I am really beginning to doubt if reality is even real and I'm super scared all day. I'm scared of my own consciousness and scared of other people. I don't even feel good among my own family anymore :( I have a lot of intrusive thoughts about life and existence and the only way out seems to kill myself. And I don't want that because I used to be very happy. I just feel like there isn't a place in the world where I can relax anymore. It's like my mind is failing to comprehend existence/reality/living/other people. I went to the doctor yesterday because I couldn't take it anymore and she prescribed me a very small dose of an antipsychotic medicine called Olanzapine. For a week, to help me get through days. But I am scared to take it. I'm scared things will get worse. Advice is greatly appreciated.
Many different meds can help, some will some won’t you can try and if that one doesn’t help try another
 

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Hi everyone,
I'm in a very bad place right now and I'm totally freaked out. I think I'm having severe dp/dr or maybe mild psychosis. I'm not sure.

Anyway I'd like some insights...
8 weeks ago I suddenly started getting thoughts about being transgender. They came out of nothing and becamse super distressing and scary. I sought professional help and they diagnosed me with OCD. After 7 weeks I suddenly got very bad dp/dr. I am familiar with this throughout my life. I've had it pretty bad when I was 20 (35 now) for over a year and it went away with meditation and therapy. Over the years I experienced short relapses that would take a few days or weeks. Nothing really bad.

But this time it's soooooo bad. I am really beginning to doubt if reality is even real and I'm super scared all day. I'm scared of my own consciousness and scared of other people. I don't even feel good among my own family anymore :( I have a lot of intrusive thoughts about life and existence and the only way out seems to kill myself. And I don't want that because I used to be very happy. I just feel like there isn't a place in the world where I can relax anymore. It's like my mind is failing to comprehend existence/reality/living/other people. I went to the doctor yesterday because I couldn't take it anymore and she prescribed me a very small dose of an antipsychotic medicine called Olanzapine. For a week, to help me get through days. But I am scared to take it. I'm scared things will get worse. Advice is greatly appreciated.
What you describe does sound bad but it doesn't sound like psychosis. Perhaps that doctor told you, but so called anti psychotics are prescribed for many other reasons than psychosis. In particular, olanzapine is sometimes prescribed because it can help with suicidal thoughts. I know someone who got it for this reason and it worked very well to help them take a break and get better (and they did not have psychosis at all). I took some too for about two months or more, at 5 mg/day, for me it was because of dpdr plus some mild mood disorder so I had lithium at the same time. I had some positive effects and some negative effects which were very ok, i just decided I didn't want to take it for the very long term, but it was all very mild and absolutely ok for those two months. One mild negative effect was that i was hungry almost all the time. Some people react like that (and some others not). But I didn't gain weight because at that time i was counting my calories intake because of working out and I just didn't change it.
Compared to the problem of having suicidal thought I think it's really not bad if it can help.
 

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Do NOT take zyprexa/ olanzapine throw it away They gave it to me too it helped with intrusive thoughts but that stuff is straight up poison for the brain and should be used only in psychosis thats what the medication is for. And why be scared of being transgender when it only exists 2 genders lmao
 

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Do NOT take zyprexa/ olanzapine throw it away They gave it to me too it helped with intrusive thoughts but that stuff is straight up poison for the brain and should be used only in psychosis thats what the medication is for. And why be scared of being transgender when it only exists 2 genders lmao
Zyprexa is in fact prescribed for OCD, typically in augmentation therapy Antidepressant and Antipsychotic Drugs Used to Treat OCD . The molecule doesn't care what was its initial usage or in what category humans sort it. Either it works or it doesn't, either it gives too bad side effects or it doesn't, I think this is what matters. But people have vastly different reactions, good and bad, to the same medicine. Here is a collection of testimonies from people who were prescribed zyprexa for OCD: Olanzapine User Reviews for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder - Drugs.com . Yours is just one among them, it should be taken into account but it's not the only one (and same for mine).
And I think he worries about what is happening in his mind, however you call it. Not about his XY genes actually changing to something that doesn't exist in human biology, if this is what you believed. If you are here it means you complain about having DPDR, does it mean that you actually believe you are becoming unreal or that you are disappearing? No, it's just happening in your mind. But does it bother you? Yes.
 

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Zyprexa is in fact prescribed for OCD, typically in augmentation therapy Antidepressant and Antipsychotic Drugs Used to Treat OCD . The molecule doesn't care what was its initial usage or in what category humans sort it. Either it works or it doesn't, either it gives too bad side effects or it doesn't, I think this is what matters. But people have vastly different reactions, good and bad, to the same medicine. Here is a collection of testimonies from people who were prescribed zyprexa for OCD: Olanzapine User Reviews for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder - Drugs.com . Yours is just one among them, it should be taken into account but it's not the only one.
And I think he worries about what is happening in his mind, however you call it. Not about his XY genes actually changing to something that doesn't exist in human biology, if this is what you believed. If you are here it means you complain about having DPDR, does it mean that you actually believe you are becoming unreal or that you are disappearing? No, it's just happening in your mind. But does it bother you? Yes.
Go ahead and destroy your brain but im warning you zyprexa is the worst of the worst of medication
 
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