Shane, I know you are frightened and it is hard to understand what is happening to us when in the world of dp/dr. What you describe is part of what it feels like to be in depersonalization. It is easier said than done to just stop obsessing. I do not believe you are obsessing, I believe you are just plain scared. It is very difficult not to think of something that is making us feel ill. Many times in my life I have heard people say oh just do not think about it and it will go away. Well that is not how I see it. Please know that you will be okay, I know it feels like you are losing who you are but you will not. This is the minds way of going away for a bit to try and get some peace. The mind is powerful it will protect you, I think dp/dr even though it feels awful is the brains way of going away for a bit to try and hold things together. We all believe different things and that is okay, we all have things that help us feel better, finding something that interests you and keeps your mind focused is very helpful in dealing with this illness. It may not make it go away but keeping your mind busy with different things truly helps. I hope you feel better soon. You will be okay, we all understand the fear, don't expect to much from yourself, do your best and gradually the less attention the dp/dr recieves the easier it can be. It may not cure it but it helps you to keep on going and not give up.