[fortniteballs09999]

hi, my name is ella. i’m 13 years old about to turn 14. in december, i decided to try my sisters weed pen while she was out shopping with my mom. i felt fine but when i was walking downstairs it hit me like a bus. i felt like my body wasn’t mine and i felt dizzy. it was a horrible experience. within 2 hours i had felt completely normal again. fast forward about a week. i’m with my cousin and she has a weed pen. although i didnt like the way it felt the first time i thought since i wasn’t alone it wouldnt be so bad. but, boy was i wrong. i felt the exact same way and almost had a panic attack. i forced myself to go to sleep. i did the pen about 2 more different times, same experience. it has been about a month since the last time i smoked weed. recently, i’ve been feeling like i’m high even when i’m not. i would be just chilling at home or at school when i would start getting that same feeling. like my body is weak. but it had never messed with my reality or anything. everything has been fine up until saturday. on saturday i got that feeling again, it really freaked me out as it came out of nowhere and eventually i calmed down. me and my sister went out to get food and the whole car ride i felt horrible. i remember trying to sing songs and being confused on how i was singing. when we got home from driving around and getting food. i started feeling disconnected from reality. i don’t know how to describe it but i feel connected to my body and mind. but the world still feels weird. like it feels like every public place is unfamiliar. my arms feel like rubber and my head just feels full. i don’t know if this is dpdr or if i’m freaking myself out. i’ve been doing mass amounts of research in the 2 days it’s been happening and i think i have it. although i do have an ear infection and my mom thinks this is the reason but i don’t. i also have had a lot of trouble sleeping. ill be comfortable but when i close my eyes i start to think about dpdr and i’ll panic, only making me feel worse. idk what to do and i’m so so scared ill never feel normal again. today i went out in public to get my ear medicine. this is a walgreens i go to atleast twice a week. but for some reason it felt so strange, like everything was so vibrant and it felt new. i really need somebody to directly tell me what is going on. it is currently 2am. i went to sleep for about an hour until i woke myself up in a panic feeling dissociated. i currently have bluey turned on (the kids show) to try and distract myself. but i cant focus on anything because my brain feels so full. the only thing i can think about is dpdr. my arms feel weak and rubbery and i don’t feel tired or any emotions. sorry to ramble on but i also haven’t felt hungry. i haven’t eaten anything since the night it happened. only because i don’t feel hungry and i also just don’t feel any emotions or pain at all. i’ve stayed in my basement the whole time this has been happening. i feel like whenever i go upstairs or in my bedroom it gets worse because the room feels so unfamiliar. i am desperate. it’s only been 2 days but i have had suicidal thoughts already. i need to feel better before i actually might do something to myself. please please please help me out

 

[fortniteballs09999]

just to add to this. on the night it happened i had the worst panic attack i think i’ve ever had. i was pacing around trying to think about why i felt like this. everyone in the house thought i was going crazy and needed to go to a mental hospital. i was throwing up and i felt so disconnected from reality. i think this panic attack sent me deeper into the feeling. the next day i woke up and felt so unreal. i went on a walk and didn’t even know how i was walking and when i got home i felt weird. idk how to describe it but i feel like my head is above my body. i have my normal pov but i feel like there is a wire connecting my body and mind, and the wire broke and i’m waiting for it to magically snap back together. i’ve been constantly pinching and hitting myself. i even relapsed with sh and did some really bad stuff to my arm just to feel something. it’s like i feel the pain but my brain isn’t reacting to it. i have to go back to school on wednesday and i’m so scared idk what to do

 

[leminaseri]

oh man… 13 years old.. sad

 

[fortniteballs09999]

oh man… 13 years old.. sad

it’s really hard. i regret doing what i did. but i don’t feel like i deserve this

 

[Peter]

oh man… 13 years old.. sad

But not even uncommon.

 

[ziggystardust]

try replacing sh with grounding techniques such as holding ice, smelling something strong like a scented candle or tasting something strong like gum. its really common for your brain to have this reaction to weed but it can and will pass. if you have access to a therapist or school counsellor or even a trusted adult they should be able to help you manage panic attacks

 

[fortniteballs09999]

try replacing sh with grounding techniques such as holding ice, smelling something strong like a scented candle or tasting something strong like gum. its really common for your brain to have this reaction to weed but it can and will pass. if you have access to a therapist or school counsellor or even a trusted adult they should be able to help you manage panic attacks

i’ve tried everything these past few days i feel like it only makes me panic more doing these things. even with sh i don’t feel anything. thank you for the advice tho <3

 

[ziggystardust]

i’ve tried everything these past few days i feel like it only makes me panic more doing these things. even with sh i don’t feel anything. thank you for the advice tho <3

yeah i struggle with that too, sometimes bringing attention to how you feel only makes the dp worse so i mainly ground with external distractions like watching a tv show or listening to my surroundings. just remember panic attacks suck but they will always pass. hope you find something that works for you

 

[fortniteballs09999]

yeah i struggle with that too, sometimes bringing attention to how you feel only makes the dp worse so i mainly ground with external distractions like watching a tv show or listening to my surroundings. just remember panic attacks suck but they will always pass. hope you find something that works for you

thank you so much for trying to help, everyone is making me seem like i’m crazy. i appreciate you

 

[NoDevils]

Stoping using marijuana if the experience is bad every time, or even half the time.

 

[fortniteballs09999]

Hi, first of all i have also been dealing with the similar situation, i had an edible, had a bad experience and felt high multiple weeks after this all happened. Then one day i felt dp and everything went downhill. Now i got good news, it has slowly been getting better for me (i also have suicidal thoughts or anything that has to do with life and death stuff like that). Those are mostlikely intrusive thoughts which are derived from stress and anxiety of the whole situation, they will cause you more stress and just make things worse so to me it sounds like you just have to accept your situation in order to move forward. Understand 2 things, you wont feel like this forever but it will take time for it to go away you cant just make it go away overnight, Accept that you are dealing with this situation and instead of trying to push or completely ignore and block it out of your mind accept it, learn to not be scared of it, Keep on doing your regular ruitine and 1# stop searching and going to forums cause they will mostlikely make things worse, the trick here is to become less anxious as DP is a nutural response which your body does in order to protect you, eventually it will leave, but no your not messed up forever you did not screw up your brain you just entered a cycle of anxiety and obsession over having this. If there is anything else or have any questions let me know ill gladly try to help.

thank you so much. i was feeling good all day today up until about an hour ago i started dissociating and i just feel numb. again, thank you for sharing ur experience and giving me advice. i’m trying my hardest to stay away from this website as it seems to make me think about it more. but if i need anything i’ll be sure to update this )

 

[Diamondarmorboy]

hi, my name is ella. i’m 13 years old about to turn 14. in december, i decided to try my sisters weed pen while she was out shopping with my mom. i felt fine but when i was walking downstairs it hit me like a bus. i felt like my body wasn’t mine and i felt dizzy. it was a horrible experience. within 2 hours i had felt completely normal again. fast forward about a week. i’m with my cousin and she has a weed pen. although i didnt like the way it felt the first time i thought since i wasn’t alone it wouldnt be so bad. but, boy was i wrong. i felt the exact same way and almost had a panic attack. i forced myself to go to sleep. i did the pen about 2 more different times, same experience. it has been about a month since the last time i smoked weed. recently, i’ve been feeling like i’m high even when i’m not. i would be just chilling at home or at school when i would start getting that same feeling. like my body is weak. but it had never messed with my reality or anything. everything has been fine up until saturday. on saturday i got that feeling again, it really freaked me out as it came out of nowhere and eventually i calmed down. me and my sister went out to get food and the whole car ride i felt horrible. i remember trying to sing songs and being confused on how i was singing. when we got home from driving around and getting food. i started feeling disconnected from reality. i don’t know how to describe it but i feel connected to my body and mind. but the world still feels weird. like it feels like every public place is unfamiliar. my arms feel like rubber and my head just feels full. i don’t know if this is dpdr or if i’m freaking myself out. i’ve been doing mass amounts of research in the 2 days it’s been happening and i think i have it. although i do have an ear infection and my mom thinks this is the reason but i don’t. i also have had a lot of trouble sleeping. ill be comfortable but when i close my eyes i start to think about dpdr and i’ll panic, only making me feel worse. idk what to do and i’m so so scared ill never feel normal again. today i went out in public to get my ear medicine. this is a walgreens i go to atleast twice a week. but for some reason it felt so strange, like everything was so vibrant and it felt new. i really need somebody to directly tell me what is going on. it is currently 2am. i went to sleep for about an hour until i woke myself up in a panic feeling dissociated. i currently have bluey turned on (the kids show) to try and distract myself. but i cant focus on anything because my brain feels so full. the only thing i can think about is dpdr. my arms feel weak and rubbery and i don’t feel tired or any emotions. sorry to ramble on but i also haven’t felt hungry. i haven’t eaten anything since the night it happened. only because i don’t feel hungry and i also just don’t feel any emotions or pain at all. i’ve stayed in my basement the whole time this has been happening. i feel like whenever i go upstairs or in my bedroom it gets worse because the room feels so unfamiliar. i am desperate. it’s only been 2 days but i have had suicidal thoughts already. i need to feel better before i actually might do something to myself. please please please help me out

I think it would be best if you can go to a doctor and explain your symptoms it’s good to catch this early on because I think panicking and our thoughts actually make it worse. Don’t try to fix it yourself or anything like that just let it pass and if it doesn’t get better in like 1 week go to the doctor and they can help you because this is anxiety also stay away from any drugs or alcohol don’t do it ever again your brain is still developing so you can grow up healthy and strong.