[Whathappenedtome]

Hi there. Not sure what is wrong with me, but I’ve always had social anxiety but now it feels like things have got a lot worse. I recently discovered dp/dr and it sounds like the symptoms I’m feeling. I just want to be normal and feel like I belong, but I don’t and never really have all of my life. It all started when I was around 10. I used to play with my brother and his best friend and one day my brother told me to go get my own friend. From that point on I shut myself off to the world. Before that, I just thought everyone was my friend but boy was I wrong. Nowadays I’m older but I still find it very difficult to connect with people, have hardly any friends, and 0 social skills. What are social skills anyway...it’s like A big game where you have to put on an act. I just can’t do that...it’s just weird to me. I don’t know how to be myself because I don’t know myself. I feel like I’m just eyeballs floating through space controlling a meat suit free to do as I wish, like some video game. I don’t believe in death so not afraid of that. I just think we repeat over and over and over on different levels just like nature. I don’t care about the future or past because all that really matters is now. Not sure what the hell I am, but I sort of feel like I am a part of god experiencing itself in this body and everything else is also god experiencing itself in that body. I feel like I’m supposed to be unaware, but I feel like I am aware somehow. Crazy I know, but makes sense to me. It’s like repeated over and over multiple levels and layers in different forms. I did also go through an awakening after 10 years of investigating how the world works (politics/money/religion/natuare, etc). After that, the world I once thought was real doesn’t seem so anymore, it seems more like a pit stop, and maybe I took a wrong turn to get here. Sometimes I feel like I just don’t belong on this planet. The “real” world isn’t so real, if you know what I mean. It’s full of fake people with masks on that I can see right through playing their snakey little manipulative games to get what they want. Money is fake. People are fake. News is fake. Politics is fake. Media is fake. Organjzed religion is fake, etc. Like the whole world people think is normal is just buil on fake shit that in the end makes a big real carnival of fake attractions, while I feel like I’m the only one who notices. I don’t know what to do. My attention spawn is toast, because I spot fake smiles, laughs, gestures, and all of the fake shit everywhere. Everything is just so distracting that I can’t even listen to anyone. And it’s not like I want to be this way, my mind just goes off and into this mode and I can’t stop it. All of this makes it difficult to do normal things like eating out, socializing, etc. I just go to work and come home and that’s my whole life most of the time because I’m fucking scared.

 

[pinggvin]

So many people dramatizing over here.. None working on real issue. Follow these these steps and add it to every day routine, im almost assured in 1 month (max 2-3) everyone can recover completely with this. Number 1. make sure u havent some other disease / deficiency. Dp but specifically DR is symptom of some diseases, including GBS, mold, lyme, heavy metal toxicity.. Do blood tests if you dont know what caused it. Number 2. Detox, powdered zeolite 3-4 times a day full spoon (20 or more grams daily). Easiest, strongest, most effective, safest detoxicator- powdered zeolite. Detox is important and can help many mental ilness. Number 3. No alchohol, no drugs, no coffe (preferably). 4. (Most important) Exercise, every day. I prefer riding bike for hours, you dont need to socialise to cure. I felt out of control with people around me, i couldnt handle dp/dr it was terrible so i was alone all the time. Martial arts, heavy weights, pushups, running, yoga, gymnastic all works great if you can do it every day ,but you cant go intense on it every day cause you will get drained mentally and physicially (with positive outcome), but dp/dr is relapsing sometimes even if you are 95% recovered (like it was in case to me ). You need everyday routine and i recommend cycling for few hours. 4-5 hours through the day. do it even at nights if you are night owl (like i was ). Dp/dr can be removed for some time if u are dedicate, but its not easy thing. "Just dont think about it, it will pass" never worked to me

 

[bintuae]

I find it strange that some people develop dp/dr from trauma. Is that something was suddenly altered in their brain? is that the emotion center there just shut off maybe by the person forcing it to? Mine is caused by drug use so I know it's the drug and is worsened by each successive trial. Anyway, I'm sorry you have this shitty disorder since childhood. wish there was a soluction. I have exactly the same symptoms you have and I do too have social anxiety.