[Num8Freak]

I just miss it. My DP/DR is only getting more intense and is killing my pesonality and memory day by day. I feel like a dead corpse drifting around, only functionating by "extrovated" thinking and socializing, to not completely destroy myself. I forgot everything that i loved or i just can't temporarily do them, because of this disgusting permanent sensation. A day ist not what i used to be. It's just like the nightmares i have in sleep, just continue, only more unreal and with some heavy tunnel vison. The time goes so fast by becaue of the DP/DR, its just gotten completely worthless me. I sometimes even forget, that i have heands and feets. And when i look at them, they look like in a 20 year old video game. Even hearing music has gotten terrible. The hearing sensivity and this weird unreal feeling of the voices/intrumentals are unenjoyable. Sounds like broken old radio to me. My appartment just looks totally weird, unfamiliar, plastic, 2D. Even if i live since 10 years there. I just wanna get my old life back Play video games, listen to music, meet with friends,1oo% real and grounded ......

 

[melissaaylott]

I’m sorry to hear you’re struggling so much. Just know that there are people, including me, who have experienced similar. You are not alone! Take your time with recovery, do things that take your mind off everything, don’t avoid any gatherings or anything. You’re strong!

 

[Num8Freak]

I'm sorry to hear you're struggling so much. Just know that there are people, including me, who have experienced similar. You are not alone! Take your time with recovery, do things that take your mind off everything, don't avoid any gatherings or anything. You're strong!

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Thank you, everyday is a battle, but i try to keep fighting !