So, for starters. I always have this feeling that nothing is real and there’s no reason for anything to exist. I don’t interact with others because I don’t know how to interact with them. I just think about this stuff all the time. It’s terrifying for me. I’m having a bigger episode right now. I feel like nothing and I don’t feel comfortable being alive and it starts to make me panic. I try going to a safe place but I can’t because even in my safe space I don’t feel like I belong. It’s really freaking me out and I just want to chill. I really want to find someone who feels the same way.