i just dont handle this anymore

i cant dont this... now i feel like everything in me is gone. i feel only discomfort... pain... when i try do sometbing it feels torture. i feel that i cant act. i can only sit here in pain. it always goes like this and i dont have no interest to go on. i simply dont care a shit anymore. i feel im not here anymore. i feel so bad.. it cannot be said.. its just so bad. i feel like something inside of me is killing me. now it killed me completely. no its really nothgin. i have been killed but i have been left hanging in this torture.