[flowingly]

I keep reading posts about how someone goes in and out of it, or lasted for X amount of time and then left only to come AGAIN, etc etc.

I'm still waiting to snap out of it for the first time :?

How does recovery feel? Help me at least dream about it, heh

 

[Scattered]

I don't think of recovery as feeling like anything. You either are or aren't in touch with reality. When you are, it feels normal. I just feel like what I am, who I am, and where I am is right. It is never a great epiphany for me when I come out of DP.

When I'm normal I can't imagine ever having DP, when I'm DPed I can't imagine ever being normal.

 

[blackwinded]

i constantly go in and out of episodes of dp, but i've yet to recover from dr, even for a moment. I've been in a dream-like state and felt unreal for almost 2 years now. Most of the time, i don't even realize i am in dr because it's a constant thing that i've become so use to. I only realize it when i think back on things that happened earlier, and feel like i was unreal and far away at the time.
Also, my sense of time has speeded up Everything is going so fast, i can't even believe im 18. I feel like i should still be 16. It feels like i skipped over two years of my life, or have been asleep for the last 2 years.

.....

-becka

 

[flowingly]

becka,



I guess what matters is you're still here. You survived. Look how far you've come. And how much stronger you must be.

 

[Mipmunk]

Coming out of DP is an amazing feeling, suddenly you feel like "you" again, no anxiety, you are completely connected to your sense of self. I have suffered on and off with DP for 11 years. I am coming towards the end of this episode of DP, I feel it is almost gone but not quite. I am waiting for the sun to suddenly come out and the rainbow to appear and for me to say "I am me again". The day is getting near, I just have to wait. Most of my episodes have lasted 4-7 weeks, but this one has been 4 months (it was triggered off by my cat going missing, being really ill and then dying), I became tearful, upset, anxious and the trauma of it all - suddenly click the switch went in my head and DP reared its ugly head again. I am long over the death of my cat, but still waiting for the DP to finally leave me. It has been a long 4 months.

So in response to your question, coming out of DP is amazing. I have found that when I am DP'd I can't imagine or remember what it was like to feel well and when I am well I can't imagine or remember what it felt like to be DP'd.

Horrible horrible illness, the worst for anyone, terrifying.

I am afraid it is a waiting game, the DP will go when it is ready, you can't force it to go, it just lifts when it does (unfortunately)...

Mip
x :?

 

[Guest]

I agree with mipmunk... coming out of DP is an AMAZING sensation. However i switch between states like 3 times every day, and that pisses me off.

Id rather have it be one or the other long enough to get situated into one or the other "mode." Its like the disorder is trying to tease me :x

Its hard to explain the "feeling" of it, other than its just one of those things you know. For me, i can physically see a grey fog lift from my vision, lights get brighter, more colorful. I start feeling physical feelings in a different way, sorta like my brain stopped ignoring them, and you juust feel yourself again.

Dont worry so much about when it will come, cause it will. No sense worrying over something you cant consciously control

 

[agentcooper]

you know, for me it is truely sad. i have dp for 2 weeks out of every month (caused by hormones)...and for the entire 2 weeks, i can't stop thinking about how i wish i were normal. then, for the 2 weeks i AM normal, i can't even remember how horrible it was to not be dred. so i really don't appreciate the "normal" feelings when i'm feeling them.

 

[peacedove]

I'm with you flowingly... no break after 17 years. Hopefully this Lamictal will help me if it doesn't kill me first.

 

[peacedove]

I'm with you flowingly... no break after 17 years. Hopefully this Lamictal will help me if it doesn't kill me first.

Actually it was on and off for the first like couple years or so, but I don't remember too well cuz I was so young.

 

[Universal]

When I'm normal I can't imagine ever having DP, when I'm DPed I can't imagine ever being normal.

So true.