Could you try to elaborate?
Well, I’ve had so many symptoms of dp/dr for many years – those who affect my vision, for example when I have an episode of dp I feel drunk or high though I’ve never been but other people describe it that way. Then it’s very difficult for me to function, everything looks very bright or sometimes dimmed, I barely keep my eyes open. I feel dizzy, numb, dreamy, dissociated etc.
And there are other “non-physical” symptoms which are more likely connected to my perception of everything and everyone and once they occur I know I’m screwed and that I’m going to feel like that for weeks or maybe months. The first time, it happened all of a sudden and I got this feeling of not belonging anywhere, for example when I hung out with my friends I felt so alienated in an unexplainable way, the city I live in seemed weird and unfamiliar, like I’m visiting it for the first time. I remembered everything, I had memories but It just didn’t feel like those memories are mine, it was more like I had lost my identity and now I long for the person I was. I remember trying to sleep as long as I could to avoid that but it simply didn’t help. I was in high school and thought that when I go to school where I had good time and good memories that scary feeling would go away but it didn’t. It lasted for 3 or 4 months and I was back to normal though not completely, I had other symptoms of dissociation but I was happy because that feeling that no place feels like home was gone. And I got it again after many years but it was not severe like the first time.. I felt like I don’t recognize my mom and my boyfriend and there was a constant panic and sadness, feeling of guilt. In my case the trigger might have been anxiety/family problems/toxic surroundings. Sensitive people are more likely to develop dissociative disorders I guess.. Wish you recover soon, all the best!
