I know space, nobody wants to have this shit, but you know, there's some good in having some names for your feelings now, and a way to get to feeling better too. You aren't nuts man, just you been affected, and it's gona be okay.
Lord, i'm with you space. But my stupid ass is bringing this on myself. I know it's really bad when I drink the night before, and I've been getting drunk here at the beach a lot, partying it up with everyone. Recently the worst thing has been that I'm not sure that I'm really here, then I get scared that I'm coming down with dementia or something, knowing that I AM really here. I feel like there are ants crawling around in my brain, and i just want to scratch them away. i'm so scared, i'm lost in my head. I start thinking about my thoughts and that's the worst. I'm thinking about thinking my thoughts, and i'm wondering what I'm thinking, how i know i'm thinking it, and how i can have more than one thought at a time, so i'm sure the second thought is schizophrenia coming on. Sigh. This blows.
don't give up! there's always hope, even when you have a terminal illness, to get better. look at Magic Johnson, he had HIV and he's still living and have a good time. don't give up, like someone said we need you here and you need us! please persevere through this. i'm sure this dp/dr can be fought since we have some recovered ones here on the boards that post almost every day (god bless you). i myself have come out of dp/dr before so it's totally cureable. i just don't know exactly what to do but if it's been done before it can be done once again. :wink:
Spaceplex, I know there are times that you feel like you just cannot stand feeling this way, I know, we all know, we all feel that way at times. It just seems like we try and try so hard to be well and nothing changes. The illness is still there. I am sure that some day you will be better, I believe we all will feel better. Take a moment and write down your feelings, sometimes this helps, write down how you feel, write down things that you would like to do. Set some goals for yourself even though you may not feel like doing this, give it a try. Focus on things that make you feel good about yourself. Do something that you like to do, go for a walk, try and think of positive things that will help redirect your mind from the down side of this illness. It is good you are reaching out here and expressing your feelings, this will help knowing others truly understand how you feel. Never give up, life is precious and it will get better.
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