Yes you are 100% right. And the shrooms allowed me to kill my ego for a short while and see the truth
It's a pretty fucked up thing once you realize you've been like that all your life (I'm sure I have been like that for AT LEAST 16 years). I remember that I was playing poker with some friends about 5 years ago or so, and one of them said something in the vain of "you have such potential of becoming a good player because you never show your emotions, hence it's impossible to guess whether you have a great hand or not". Back then I thought that it's actually cool, but the price of not showing emotions is just too great.This is what creates DP. Hiding your emotions means hiding yourself, and we did it for so long that we no longer knew when we lie and when we are being honest to ourselves. In DP you forget what the truth is.
totally not understanding anything about this post...When you say your brain can barely handle weed, you may mean you can barely handle the truth when weed calms your mind down and removes your protection mechanisms.
Or, you connected certain feelings of being high to some threat (going crazy, losing myself, etc..).
I don't think drugs reset the brain. But they can provide the insight needed to identify your issues, which can be done sober. Hell, I'm scared shitless of drugs, not for me to try haha.I don't see how it would provide a 'reset' for all people suffering from DP/DR. If your dissociation is caused by dormant issues that were waiting to be triggered, there's no chemical reaction that is going to miraculously erase it. Experimenting with different drugs (especially when they triggered DP for a lot of people) seems foolhardy and risky.
I would be curious on how long your recovery lasts, no offense. Many people *believe* something has cured them, only to come back in a couple months because they didn't resolve the actual issues. Either way, best of luck.