[SJ_]

Hi, I'm SJ.

I have been diagnosed and dealt with generalized anxiety disorder and recurring major depressive disorder since I was a kid due to a toxic living situation. I have been in and out of therapy for years but have never been satisfied or helped much. I stopped going to therapy for 3 years and in that time frame, I ended up back in a toxic situation with someone who has anxiety, depression, and PTSD and as an empathy I could never get mad at this person for yelling at me because I knew where the pain was coming from. Things got worse and I moved out a year ago. This past year has been rough because several people have mentioned to me that I am constantly depersonalizing things in my life and beyond that the feeling of losing my grip on reality is slipping from me and I am scared.

I started doing research on dissociative identity disorder, depersonalization, and derealization.....all of these descriptions are things I have felt/ experienced most of my life and now really scared that I'm losing myself. My anxiety and depression have increasingly gotten worse as well. I just met someone and fell in love with him recently and I am terrified that I'm going to mess this great thing up because of what happens in my head.

I did reach out to a therapist and did a first time patient assessment 2 days ago but my first actual therapy appointment isn't for another 2 weeks because they are booked and I can't see the nurse practitioner for another 2 months despite the fact I'm losing my head now.

I don't know what to do in the mean time and I'm freaking out.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks, SJ

 

[Sabby]

Hi, your not going to lose your grip on reality. That's what DPDR does as it makes you feel that way. You can and will get better. I'm in a similar situation as I'm battling extreme DPDR. I'm on medication and am now starting alternative therapies. I believe it will take effort to resolve this but am motivated and willing. I believe another key element to recovery is to continue and live your life as best as possible. Wish you all the best.

 

[SJ_]

Thanks, I can't get therapy or medication help for 2 weeks to 2 months and I don't know how to manage it in the meantime. I do what I need to in my daily life but sometimes I just lose co centraition on everything.