Lately, I've felt pretty good. My depression is pretty minimal. Mostly because I'm reading again, staying busy, and exercising. It feels good to try and lead a normal life. It's just, I still feel a little out of it, a little not like myself, still no emotions, bad memory, and bad (but better) concentration. I feel I'm either recovering or getting used to it... It's frustrating not knowing. How much longer? If I am recovering, there's been no improvement for awhile except for the depression lifting due to Lexapro. Anybody with experience? Is this even DR? I feel like I have brain damage or that my neurotransmitters are so out of whack, ill never feel normal again... Just please tell me it sounds like DR and please tell me it sounds like I'm making some progress in recovery. And PLEASE tell me this shit goes away. I've lost 7 months of my life to this.
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So ignoring it is really the key. I exercised today for the first time so I really am trying. And I'm not obsessively looking on google about my symptoms anymore. I'm usually in a pretty content mood but once I get to thinking about it, my thoughts get so dark. "this isn't DR, it's brain damage." "You're not recovering, you're getting used to being numb." "These are the symptoms you'll always have to love with." "You'll never recovery." And they just scare me so much. To the point where it's hard to accept it because what if those thoughts are true and the positive side of me is just fooling myself....?
I guess I do have a long way to go still... Just some reassurance would be amazing. I don't want to have this for years like some people.
I guess I do have a long way to go still... Just some reassurance would be amazing. I don't want to have this for years like some people.Thank you so much what I got from your advice is I really just need to accept it and those thoughts will go away or won't scare me. I'm not sure how bad DR can get but telling from stories on here I'd say my DR is a 3 out of 10. It's minor but annoying enough to interfere with life. Plus it's chronic and it's strong enough to make emotional numbing and my memory a little bad. I'm trying to help my memory a bit with reading though. And so far, I can keep up with a book when 4 months ago, I couldn't even stay on top of a conversation. Maybe I am recovering but it's so slow and subtle that I'm not even noticing it and ill just wake up one day once I just accept it and realize its gone. I just hope that day is 100% for sure.
what I got from your advice is I really just need to accept it and those thoughts will go away or won't scare me. I'm not sure how bad DR can get but telling from stories on here I'd say my DR is a 3 out of 10. It's minor but annoying enough to interfere with life. Plus it's chronic and it's strong enough to make emotional numbing and my memory a little bad. I'm trying to help my memory a bit with reading though. And so far, I can keep up with a book when 4 months ago, I couldn't even stay on top of a conversation. Maybe I am recovering but it's so slow and subtle that I'm not even noticing it and ill just wake up one day once I just accept it and realize its gone. I just hope that day is 100% for sure.1 - 3 of 8 Posts
