[M1k3y]

i dont feel like im getting better

i dont know what to fucking do man

i take 5htp vitamins to boost my happyness but when i dont take them i just feel like shit man

like a legit of feeling sad all the time, for no fucking reason

yeah i guess i could just keep taking 5htp, but ive been on it for 2 months and it obv hasnt helped any

and also

its so hard to talk to people

i have no personality, its hard for me to even make conversation cus its like i dont fucking care

and when i do make convo i can see that im boring the person im talking to to death

cus i aint got to funny to me anymore

im just straight serious and it fucking sucks

just looking back at some old snapchat videos of me and pictures

its so fucking sad how i feel like my life is over

over 1 bad day and my life is gone man

fucking crackheads smoke crack and i bet they feel better then i do

i took 2 puffs of weed man??

come on????????????

like dude.. i go back to my pictures before the day it happend, like life was so good

the night it happend i just went to sleep

the next morning thats when i new something was wrong

i even took a picture of myself that day

i just dont look right man, the look in my eyes dude

god damn

i just feel like giving up man

faking conversations, unsatisfying people

getting judged cus im so fucking blan

work is so hard cus i gotta talk to people and it just sucks man

i legit just want to go homeless and just say fuck it all

the pressure is to much

u know its funny, the night i fucked myself over i remember telling myself i wish i didnt feel at all

and would u look at that, god answered my prayer

shit me saying i wanna go homeless

he'll probly make that happen

thanks god

ur a real 1 man

i tried to be a good person

obv i fuckin suck

 

[Pondererer]

how long did u have it?

 

[Chip1021]

Just to clarify, my "liking" your post isn't intended to mean I like what you are going through. It's meant more of "I agree with what you are saying, and feel the same way"

I guess I could have just said that without the confusing "like" function.

Do you find that the 5htp helps somewhat with mood, at least? Cause I just bought some, though nothing seems to have ever had any effect on me, so I'm not really expecting anything. I just feel I can't keep complaining unless I'm trying everything possible to get better.

 

[M1k3y]

how long did u have it?

about 2 years and 2 months

 

[M1k3y]

Just to clarify, my "liking" your post isn't intended to mean I like what you are going through. It's meant more of "I agree with what you are saying, and feel the same way"

I guess I could have just said that without the confusing "like" function.

Do you find that the 5htp helps somewhat with mood, at least? Cause I just bought some, though nothing seems to have ever had any effect on me, so I'm not really expecting anything. I just feel I can't keep complaining unless I'm trying everything possible to get better.

yeah i dont know, its not like a incredible boost, but i think it did help some

when i do take it i think i seem to talk more and wanna talk more

idk id give it a shot, doesnt hurt i dont think