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Hi all. My name is Victoria and I am 35 and just recently found this site due to a search I did and a forum from the site popping up in the results. Maybe this is where I need to start/be, I don't know really.... Any help is greatly appreciate (sorry so long)
For the span of my 7 year relationship, there has been problems in the relationship, and I do mean big ones. I used to get extremely stressed out, not eating, throwing up, basically a nervous wreck. My spouse and I started seeing a therapist and began trying to straighten out all the issues but there were still moments of extreme tantrums, throwing things etc. The thing is.... at one point, a point that I can not even recall, I began to almost drift away mentally... maybe a better word, swept away, by a feeling that just came out of nowhere and it was like I was somewhere else. I couldn't see anything, or hear anything but I could FEEL things around me were different than where I was. It happened over and over at various times of extreme stress and then it started happening thru music and when I was driving. The places I would "be" were always different, or at least they felt different. It came to a point where I started to vaguely hear sounds and conversation, all blurred and distorted, but there all the same. Kind of like being at the fair, hearing all the noises together makes it jumbled and so much is going on, you can't focus on one thing. It's like in the movies when your lost and it's all moving fast around you, the people the sounds the lights... When these things happen, I actually feel something, somewhere, like I am there, like there are two of me and the other one is there.
I told the therapist and he said it was very bizarre however he thought it was my body just going into a very deep meditation process to not have to deal with the situation at hand. He didn't really have an explanation as it started to happen at random moments too.
So, now it's been about a year and a half and I do it a LOT more often now and it's more powerful now. For example, I live in a very country rural area and sometimes as I drive the same road i drive all the time, out of nowhere, it feels like I am somewhere TOTALLY different. Still driving, just not at all where I'm actually driving. Sometimes, I instantly just "hear" the sounds of machinery, like I'm in a factory, sometimes I "feel" like I'm in the dessert somewhere on a ranch. (And I've never been to the dessert ever) I "feel" people around me working, Latino men, herding cows maybe... I don't feel in danger, and I feel like I'm part of the scene, like they know I'm there, I just don't know where or how or what role I play.
I've been researching reincarnation, and now I'm here and I'm just not sure what's going on. Are these past life events I've actually experienced? They seem SO real. i want to learn all I can so I can try to learn to channel and use the moments in some positive or at least informational way. I have thought about writing them down but they happen so often and at moments that I don't have access to time or materials to keep up with it all.
I'm constantly thought of as an air head although I'm very well spoken and intelligent, simply because I'm not even in the moments I'm in sometimes when people are talking to me and I don't hear or it's so vague because I'm trying to figure out my "situation" when it happens and I've even tried to explain to people that something is just strange, they brush it off like I'm crazy. I KNOW I'm not crazy. I've always attracted people, my entire life people have just gravitated towards me. Is this part of the same thing.... Am I crazy???
Anybody that can relate???
For the span of my 7 year relationship, there has been problems in the relationship, and I do mean big ones. I used to get extremely stressed out, not eating, throwing up, basically a nervous wreck. My spouse and I started seeing a therapist and began trying to straighten out all the issues but there were still moments of extreme tantrums, throwing things etc. The thing is.... at one point, a point that I can not even recall, I began to almost drift away mentally... maybe a better word, swept away, by a feeling that just came out of nowhere and it was like I was somewhere else. I couldn't see anything, or hear anything but I could FEEL things around me were different than where I was. It happened over and over at various times of extreme stress and then it started happening thru music and when I was driving. The places I would "be" were always different, or at least they felt different. It came to a point where I started to vaguely hear sounds and conversation, all blurred and distorted, but there all the same. Kind of like being at the fair, hearing all the noises together makes it jumbled and so much is going on, you can't focus on one thing. It's like in the movies when your lost and it's all moving fast around you, the people the sounds the lights... When these things happen, I actually feel something, somewhere, like I am there, like there are two of me and the other one is there.
I told the therapist and he said it was very bizarre however he thought it was my body just going into a very deep meditation process to not have to deal with the situation at hand. He didn't really have an explanation as it started to happen at random moments too.
So, now it's been about a year and a half and I do it a LOT more often now and it's more powerful now. For example, I live in a very country rural area and sometimes as I drive the same road i drive all the time, out of nowhere, it feels like I am somewhere TOTALLY different. Still driving, just not at all where I'm actually driving. Sometimes, I instantly just "hear" the sounds of machinery, like I'm in a factory, sometimes I "feel" like I'm in the dessert somewhere on a ranch. (And I've never been to the dessert ever) I "feel" people around me working, Latino men, herding cows maybe... I don't feel in danger, and I feel like I'm part of the scene, like they know I'm there, I just don't know where or how or what role I play.
I've been researching reincarnation, and now I'm here and I'm just not sure what's going on. Are these past life events I've actually experienced? They seem SO real. i want to learn all I can so I can try to learn to channel and use the moments in some positive or at least informational way. I have thought about writing them down but they happen so often and at moments that I don't have access to time or materials to keep up with it all.
I'm constantly thought of as an air head although I'm very well spoken and intelligent, simply because I'm not even in the moments I'm in sometimes when people are talking to me and I don't hear or it's so vague because I'm trying to figure out my "situation" when it happens and I've even tried to explain to people that something is just strange, they brush it off like I'm crazy. I KNOW I'm not crazy. I've always attracted people, my entire life people have just gravitated towards me. Is this part of the same thing.... Am I crazy???
Anybody that can relate???
