[Gustavo]

Hi! I started to feel the synthoms some years ago, and it was horrible.
I had some trouble with physical touch, and after someone touch me, I started to feel like I was disappearing. Not my body, but like... my personality, my soul, my mind.
I started to feel like I was beinging consumed for the essence of the other people and this thing started to come over me and take myself away
IT'S HORRIBLE! I STARTED TO FEEL LIKE I WAS GONE
Them, to stop this, my brain created a easy way out: self harm
I started to scratch the parts of my body that was touch till I feel it was gone
I could like... feel this essence of myselg and otherself in places and stuff
I first though it was OCD, but deep inside I knew it wasn't all that.

Then I started therapy and my psycholigist said it was a kind of Despersonalization, and it was kind of a Obsessive Disorder too but it wasn't Compulsive.

I couldn't tell if it was right, and I never had an episode of Desrealization I guess. At somepoint I felt like I was not real but I don't felt like it was strong enough to be an Desrealization episode.

Anyone felt something close to that? I never saw something like this in DP

 

[Mowkus]

I'm just here to make sure you're okay. I personally haven't felt anything like what you have felt and I hope this stuff slips your mind. I've tried to end my life in the past. But I can tell you others on here know what you're going through and I swear they will help when they get online. Please don't feel the need to hurt yourself anymore as you will receive help here, just bare with the community.

 

[Gustavo]

Thanks! I'm way better after I started therapy!
My episodes now are less frequent and just happens when I'm concerned or with people I don't feel myself confortable with and in moments of extreme anxiety

But still triggers my mind not knowing anyone who had something specific like this.