[user1111]

FUCK DP. FUCK DR. I DONT CARE ANYMORE!!! I I LITERALLY COULD CLOSE MY EYES AND BE SURPRISED. ID BE LIKE HOW THE FUCK DID I DO THAT..
i really dont have time for this anymore. Fuck this dpdr. Fuck this ocd. Fuck this health anxiety. Fuck this death anxiety. Fuck Anxiety for no reason. FUCK ANXIETY! I HAVE EXPERIENCED SETBACKS OVER 10000 TIMES NOW. WHERE IS THE RECOVERY? NO RECOVERY. SO? WHAT DO I DO? I TELL MY BODY TO SHUT THE FUCK UP AND TELL MY BRAIN TO FUCK OFF. sigh..
Nobody gets this shit. I just say its Depression even though its fucking WORSE man. I know your probably thinking im overreacting. But am i really? Imagine some fucking guy annoying u on the side for a few fucking months. Or just imagine something annoying for a few months. You would be angry right? And annoyed right? Yea and thats with dpdr too. Man. Why. Why is it me? Why me? I keep asking myself. Why? Just why? Atleast i know now that i have anxiety because dpdr fucking suddenly came when i woke up bro. Before the day of having dpdr... oh wait actually,, ive had dpdr for definitely a few years. The severe dpdr would last for few secs. But there Was really mild dpdr in those years. Now i know why the fuck i had anxiety for "no" reason because of dpdr. And i thought having dpdr for a few secs Was normal... boyyyyyyyyy how dumb was i bro. If i would put just a little more Research i could maybe change my ways.. you know, make my anxiety less severe atleast. Anyway, fuck this shit, having dpdr probably almost my whole life? Noooo noooo. I wont let that fucking slide. Im just angry at this point. Atleast i have Emotion man. Well anyway see you guys in a few months
Toooo be continued i guess?

 

[Findingtheway]

You are 100% right…and the fact that you can express anger is a gift…majority of us are suppressed emotionally and it’s as if our minds don’t kick into gear…emotion is everything.

 

[35467]

I think you should be seen by a psychiatrist as depersonalization/derealisation can be manifest along with other symptoms in the prodromal fase of some conditions. It has to be ruled out. The instability and incoherence of your posts do not speak for Depersonalization disorder. Hope you come in the right hands and get well.

 

[coolwhip27]

You are 100% right…and the fact that you can express anger is a gift…majority of us are suppressed emotionally and it’s as if our minds don’t kick into gear…emotion is everything.

Unfortunately emotion isn’t always beneficial to us. Especially when you have to internalize it, or else somehow make an attempt to let it out. And even if you do, “venting” is only a temporary solution. Emotion isn’t everything, that’s an untrue statement coming from someone who probably just wishes they had more emotion. I experience this type of inward frustration that OP does, it’s not the healthy kind, because it’s pointed inward. It’s pointed at yourself.

 

[Findingtheway]

Unfortunately emotion isn’t always beneficial to us. Especially when you have to internalize it, or else somehow make an attempt to let it out. And even if you do, “venting” is only a temporary solution. Emotion isn’t everything, that’s an untrue statement coming from someone who probably just wishes they had more emotion. I experience this type of inward frustration that OP does, it’s not the healthy kind, because it’s pointed inward. It’s pointed at yourself.

 

[Findingtheway]

I think you should be seen by a psychiatrist as depersonalization/derealisation can be manifest along with other symptoms in the prodromal fase of some conditions. It has to be ruled out. The instability and incoherence of your posts do not speak for Depersonalization disorder. Hope you come in the right hands and get well.

 

[Findingtheway]

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[Findingtheway]

@user1111 has a fighters mentality in this post and to be honest we all need this attitude to survive…to tell ourselves this bullshit has run its course and we refuse to let it go any further.

 

[coolwhip27]

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[coolwhip27]

-_-

 

[Findingtheway]

@coolwhip27 I misread…completely out of context…tried to erase it…bipolar moment…I apologize

 

[coolwhip27]

@coolwhip27 I misread…completely out of context…tried to erase it…bipolar moment…I apologize

Alright, forgiven

 

[Findingtheway]

@coolwhip27 Thank u brother very sorry

 

[Findingtheway]

This whole thing just sucks..there are 101 reasons why we all disconnect ourselves..I really believe there’s hope for eveyone..I was lucky enough to crawl out of a really deep pit in my mind already. Surviving this disorder is only gonna make us more valuable to the human experience and more appreciative of the smaller things…most importantly breaking the stigma surrounding mental illness.

 

[Findingtheway]

I used to daydream a lot…as a kid you don’t think much of it…doodling in class…spacing out playing center field..immersing myself in movies and video games…i now look back and see where I found clever ways of dodging conflict to find stability and peace of mind…as you get older we can’t hide as well from the world and those habits we adapted as children dont translate aswell…I just feel now that my guard was up for so long that my will power gave out..now when I get stressed there is this unexplained blank canvas that comes over me..i used to be overly emotional now it’s a struggle to feel the duality between joy and pain…just stuck.

 

[user1111]

FUCK DP. FUCK DR. I DONT CARE ANYMORE!!! I I LITERALLY COULD CLOSE MY EYES AND BE SURPRISED. ID BE LIKE HOW THE FUCK DID I DO THAT..
i really dont have time for this anymore. Fuck this dpdr. Fuck this ocd. Fuck this health anxiety. Fuck this death anxiety. Fuck Anxiety for no reason. FUCK ANXIETY! I HAVE EXPERIENCED SETBACKS OVER 10000 TIMES NOW. WHERE IS THE RECOVERY? NO RECOVERY. SO? WHAT DO I DO? I TELL MY BODY TO SHUT THE FUCK UP AND TELL MY BRAIN TO FUCK OFF. sigh..
Nobody gets this shit. I just say its Depression even though its fucking WORSE man. I know your probably thinking im overreacting. But am i really? Imagine some fucking guy annoying u on the side for a few fucking months. Or just imagine something annoying for a few months. You would be angry right? And annoyed right? Yea and thats with dpdr too. Man. Why. Why is it me? Why me? I keep asking myself. Why? Just why? Atleast i know now that i have anxiety because dpdr fucking suddenly came when i woke up bro. Before the day of having dpdr... oh wait actually,, ive had dpdr for definitely a few years. The severe dpdr would last for few secs. But there Was really mild dpdr in those years. Now i know why the fuck i had anxiety for "no" reason because of dpdr. And i thought having dpdr for a few secs Was normal... boyyyyyyyyy how dumb was i bro. If i would put just a little more Research i could maybe change my ways.. you know, make my anxiety less severe atleast. Anyway, fuck this shit, having dpdr probably almost my whole life? Noooo noooo. I wont let that fucking slide. Im just angry at this point. Atleast i have Emotion man. Well anyway see you guys in a few months
Toooo be continued i guess?

You are 100% right…and the fact that you can express anger is a gift…majority of us are suppressed emotionally and it’s as if our minds don’t kick into gear…emotion is everything.

FUCK DP. FUCK DR. I DONT CARE ANYMORE!!! I I LITERALLY COULD CLOSE MY EYES AND BE SURPRISED. ID BE LIKE HOW THE FUCK DID I DO THAT..
i really dont have time for this anymore. Fuck this dpdr. Fuck this ocd. Fuck this health anxiety. Fuck this death anxiety. Fuck Anxiety for no reason. FUCK ANXIETY! I HAVE EXPERIENCED SETBACKS OVER 10000 TIMES NOW. WHERE IS THE RECOVERY? NO RECOVERY. SO? WHAT DO I DO? I TELL MY BODY TO SHUT THE FUCK UP AND TELL MY BRAIN TO FUCK OFF. sigh..
Nobody gets this shit. I just say its Depression even though its fucking WORSE man. I know your probably thinking im overreacting. But am i really? Imagine some fucking guy annoying u on the side for a few fucking months. Or just imagine something annoying for a few months. You would be angry right? And annoyed right? Yea and thats with dpdr too. Man. Why. Why is it me? Why me? I keep asking myself. Why? Just why? Atleast i know now that i have anxiety because dpdr fucking suddenly came when i woke up bro. Before the day of having dpdr... oh wait actually,, ive had dpdr for definitely a few years. The severe dpdr would last for few secs. But there Was really mild dpdr in those years. Now i know why the fuck i had anxiety for "no" reason because of dpdr. And i thought having dpdr for a few secs Was normal... boyyyyyyyyy how dumb was i bro. If i would put just a little more Research i could maybe change my ways.. you know, make my anxiety less severe atleast. Anyway, fuck this shit, having dpdr probably almost my whole life? Noooo noooo. I wont let that fucking slide. Im just angry at this point. Atleast i have Emotion man. Well anyway see you guys in a few months
Toooo be continued i guess?

Thank you all. Yea i should definitely go see a psychiatrist

 

[user1111]

I used to daydream a lot…as a kid you don’t think much of it…doodling in class…spacing out playing center field..immersing myself in movies and video games…i now look back and see where I found clever ways of dodging conflict to find stability and peace of mind…as you get older we can’t hide as well from the world and those habits we adapted as children dont translate aswell…I just feel now that my guard was up for so long that my will power gave out..now when I get stressed there is this unexplained blank canvas that comes over me..i used to be overly emotional now it’s a struggle to feel the duality between joy and pain…just stuck.

Its crazy when i Was a kid i had dpdr only for seconds and look at me now.. thought it was normal..

 

[Chen]

We feel you man😔