You sound petrified, which is real common and a understandable reaction to dissociation. Im really sorry your currently going through this phase. Itll get easier, believe me. It definently does feel like your dead but stop feeding yourself thoughts about it. The more you wonder how you feel that way and why, the more it creates the sense that your experiancing something unimaginable and not normal and that theres no way out. Try the opposite approach in your thinking. Remind yourself your alive and that your consciousness hasnt gone anywhere. Your with it, always. And your body is always present, as is your environment. Tell yourself these thoughts everyday. Try being present in whats going on around you, itll be hard at first but itll help. Try things like the 3-3-3 anxiety rule. I really hope it gets easier for you! 🙏
