[Justaquickrelieve]

Hi,
I've had whatever i'm experiencing now for 9 months. I took 1 xtc pill at a party 9 months ago, the party was fun. 3 days after the party (after a stressfull couple of days because of school&work) i had a panic attack, i think it lasted for 5 minutes or so. I thought that i was dying it was really scary... i began to feel a bit strange through the day.. the next few weeks were like hell. I couldn't eat and sleep well because i was so anxious. Now, 9 months later i have a feeling that i don't even experience DR and it makes me really insecure because now i question what i do have. I can't relate with anyone on here i can't even explain what i do feel.. the only thing is that i feel strange and everything isn't what it's supposed to be... i'm waiting for an answer on what the hell i am experiencing.
What i DO experience:
- detachment from my environment (my own house, my own stuff, i don't hava a feeling towards them)
- extreme confusion on what the fuck i'm experiencing
- i began to feel a little detach from the people that i love, but not extreme

I do now that the world is real, and that i am real and everything looks real and feels real but i know that there is something wrong and i wanna know, is this DR? Or DP
Because i began to really doubt it.... no one has only 1 symptom.. except for me and that is the detachment.
I also have A LOT of questions in my head all day long, something like;

- is this ever going away?
- am i gonna feel like me again?
- can i feel love again?
- why can't i feel joy
- why is living so EXTREMELY uncomfortable because this is not how it used to be

The only thing i know is that i feel extremely uncomfortable with life, because i'm detached from my life

Can someone please help me because i wanna know what else
There is to experience

 

[ali3n]

sounds like it could be derealization
https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/dissociative-disorders/#.XETUHDPnYwg
but maybe you should talk to a dr.

 

[Justaquickrelieve]

sounds like it could be derealization
https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/dissociative-disorders/#.XETUHDPnYwg
but maybe you should talk to a dr.

I already have a psychologist. She says that she doesn't know if it is derealization, but no one can give me the diagnosis... and if it isnt derealization, then what the fuck is it ;(

 

[allison84]

Hi I dont come on here much anymore but here iam
I had to comment on your post because I had and still mildly have your exact symptoms
I cant relate to anyone on here hence why I dont come on here anymore ' till now '
Yes those feelings are dissociation because what else could it possibly be?
The feelings dont fit any other mental disorder so its dissociation
My feelings are identical to yours and it did my head in trying to work out what it was I was suffering from because it doesnt fit the normal criteria of depersonalization or derealization
You sense something is not right with your
Life or yourself so your mind has some sort of disconnection going on right now and it will switch back on when you sort the anxiety in yourself ...
So stop stressing weather its depersonalization or derealization because it is !

 

[forestx5]

Could be all that, and a bag of chips!

I had a brief stint with DP and a long (40 year) relationship with DP.

I found information that strongly suggested I have an EEG.

I did, and it showed my brain to be similar to those with a history of epileptic seizures.

I had been so focused on putting one foot in front of the

other (for 40 years), that I hadn't noticed. Since

I didn't lose consciousness with my seizures, the medical community also failed to notice.

If I were you, I would have an EEG performed.

 

[Justaquickrelieve]

Hi I dont come on here much anymore but here iam
I had to comment on your post because I had and still mildly have your exact symptoms
I cant relate to anyone on here hence why I dont come on here anymore ' till now '
Yes those feelings are dissociation because what else could it possibly be?
The feelings dont fit any other mental disorder so its dissociation
My feelings are identical to yours and it did my head in trying to work out what it was I was suffering from because it doesnt fit the normal criteria of depersonalization or derealization
You sense something is not right with your
Life or yourself so your mind has some sort of disconnection going on right now and it will switch back on when you sort the anxiety in yourself ...
So stop stressing weather its depersonalization or derealization because it is !

It's so calming to know that i'm not the only one... everyone on here talks about all the symptoms that i don't expierence (the vision, the dream like state, brain fog etc. You know what i mean) so its super calming!!!!!
Its some sort of dissociation yes, so its just anxiety and maybe a little bit dr of dp?
And how are you managing? And for how long did u have it?

 

[Justaquickrelieve]

Could be all that, and a bag of chips!
I had a brief stint with DP and a long (40 year) relationship with DP.
I found information that strongly suggested I have an EEG.
I did, and it showed my brain to be similar to those with a history of epileptic seizures.
I had been so focused on putting one foot in front of the
other (for 40 years), that I hadn't noticed. Since
I didn't lose consciousness with my seizures, the medical community also failed to notice.
If I were you, I would have an EEG performed.

I don't understand what your saying......

 

[ali3n]

I don't understand what your saying......

lol he sugests that you have an EEG (electroencephalogram) performed to discard the possibility of it being epilepsy

 

[Justaquickrelieve]

lol he sugests that you have an EEG (electroencephalogram) performed to discard the possibility of it being epilepsy

But i know that it isn't elilepsy because i never had issues with that

 

[Phantasm]

More often than not I've felt alien, even from this site and community that talks about these things, and heard from lots of people here who felt the same - that they do not or no longer relate to what people are saying at different times or stages. It's a curious paradox, but maybe not so much when that's the nature of disconnection, and questioning how you feel and whether it qualifies as one thing or another and not being sure, and that's all part of it.

People are all at different levels, of being unwell or recovering. Sometimes you talk to someone who is in the same place as you, other times you can't relate. I guess it's all a question of degree, but just because you don't feel the same as others at any given time doesn't invalidate how you are feeling now. What you are describing sounds to me like classic dissociation symptoms brought on by a panic attack.

 

[Psyborg]

I have had exactly the same thing as you ! so you are not alone

 

[Array]

Could be all that, and a bag of chips!

I had a brief stint with DP and a long (40 year) relationship with DP.

I found information that strongly suggested I have an EEG.

I did, and it showed my brain to be similar to those with a history of epileptic seizures.

I had been so focused on putting one foot in front of the

other (for 40 years), that I hadn't noticed. Since

I didn't lose consciousness with my seizures, the medical community also failed to notice.

If I were you, I would have an EEG performed.

Interesting. Is your DP quick then, because usually, I thought people deal with this mostly all day? Seizures don't last all day, do they? Or do you experience some strange sensation where you cant speak for a few minutes?