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I did something sad...possible spoiler

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Tonight I had my cat put down.

She was almost 19 years old, had her all my life and she was sick. For the past two years she has been throwing up her food and having mini-seizures. She weighed 20lb a few years back. When I took her in tonight she weiged less than 5. What I hate is the fact that I don't know if she was in pain. I know she was suffering, she had to have been. But she was still eating, still hungry, she just couldn't keep it down. I just didn't know what else to do and i'm so very sad about it right now.

For those of you out there who have had to go through with this before, I had no idea it was so hard. If you have any advice as to how I can get the image of her laying limp and lifeless with vacant eyes please tell me. I just keep seeing that. And I can hear her last meow..i'm just so sad and shocked with myself.
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I'm extremely sorry to hear that Sarah.

I went through the same thing with my cat a couple of years ago. It was, in all honesty, the saddest loss i experienced (My grandfather died when i was young and i didn't really understand the implications of it). I had my cat since i was like 10 or 11. We had been through so much together. She was my little fluffy companion when I was comfort when times were bad...and my friend when things were good. It sounds bizarre talking that way about a cat but she really was. I grew up with her...travelled from house to house...she was one of the few permanent things in my life that i could always count on.

When she died i was soooo depressed, for like a week. One thing that i found helped me a great deal is writing out a little ode to her. I described all the things i loved about her...some of the highlights, etc. That helped tremendously and i will always cherish that piece of writing.

It's a terrible thing to lose something you love. But though it sounds cliche, it's better to have loved and lost than never to have had her at all. Good luck, Sarah...and my sympathies.

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