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I did something sad...possible spoiler

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Tonight I had my cat put down.

She was almost 19 years old, had her all my life and she was sick. For the past two years she has been throwing up her food and having mini-seizures. She weighed 20lb a few years back. When I took her in tonight she weiged less than 5. What I hate is the fact that I don't know if she was in pain. I know she was suffering, she had to have been. But she was still eating, still hungry, she just couldn't keep it down. I just didn't know what else to do and i'm so very sad about it right now.

For those of you out there who have had to go through with this before, I had no idea it was so hard. If you have any advice as to how I can get the image of her laying limp and lifeless with vacant eyes please tell me. I just keep seeing that. And I can hear her last meow..i'm just so sad and shocked with myself.
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I'm sorry too Sarah. :( I'm always choked when animals are suffering. At least it isn't in any pain anymore.

It may sound strange coming from me, but I agree with Terri* when she says that pets come to be a part of the family, and you grieve in the same way. I know I do. When I get back to living on my own, there is no way I can get myself a pet. If anything happened to it I would be totally gutted. Cowardly, I know, but seeing as I'm too irresponsible to look after even a house plant, I wouldn't trust myself.

And stop torturing yourself. I know it's hard, but you did the best thing.
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