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I desperatly need to hear from people who have this.

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I am so sorry but I am really battling fear at the moment, maybe some of you have people who you can talk to about this but I don't, not one person anywhere.

I really want to hear form anybody who has DR (if that's what I have I dont know, so lets say, people who can relate to these symptoms)

I feel OK within myself, but I when I look around, right now, at my keyboard, out the window, at my TV, its like I am detached from reality, less conscious than I used to be, I can think fine, and I seem to be fully functional, being able to train at the gym, play football, badminton etc, but everywhere looks SO DETACHED, and SURREAL, this is really freaking me out and i feel very alone in this, why? because when this happened, it has not gone, so many people here talk about DP/DR when they have panic attacks or coming and going, well mine just came and stayed and I feel very alone, I was doing well, but something happened the other evening which stressed me out, and i was stressed all through the night, and when I woke up I was really unhappy, and then I noticed it, the feeling of unreality had gotten worse, its the first time since it first happened that it has gotten worse, the first time it happened, it just came and stayed, then because I never new what it was, I got anxiety, more stress etc, and went through weeks of hell, but then i started to relax and realise what it was, and that it was more than likely stress induced, so I got on with my life and was learning to get used to the world seeming a tad odd, but then the other day for the first time ever I woke up with it worse, feeling MORE detached, I am now freaking out because, I am so scared i don't know how far this may go, I could handle the amount of detachment I had before, but this is borderline too much for me.

is there anybody else out there who has had DR or whatever I have (these symptoms) of unreality or being detached form my surroundings, not connected, like I am looking through somebody else's eyes or something. anybody else had this come, and stay, will it go? can it go? what can I do to get my vision back to normality?

all I do is come here and ask questions like this, over and over, but I am lost, really lost and very alone in this.
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You are definitely not alone. I battle this constantly as well. It's like I'm on another planet... everything seems foreign yet I know it's not. Weird stuff and hard to explain so I understand how you don't have anyone to talk to about it. For the longest time I didn't either. When I was little I tried to explain it once to my family and once to my best friend, but they didn't know what I was talking about and didn't take it all that seriously so I kept it to myself for a long time. I can now talk with my boyfriend about it, but honestly I don't think it helps too much. No one can fully grasp it who doesn't suffer from it so this is the best place to get support, even better than seeing most doctors for it I think.

There are many others on this site that have this 24/7 like us. I used to feel like I was the only one. Before I knew I had DP and was explaining my symptoms to doctors they would say I have panic disorder. They said feelings of unreality are very common in this disorder. At first I was kinda excited, I was like finally I know what's wrong with me. But then I started reading up on panic disorder, self-help books and such, and I realized they weren't talking about 24/7 unreality. My god I'd be so much better off if I only felt this way sometimes. My life is one big neverending panic attack. The unreality never leaves me.

How long have you suffered from this? The sooner you find out what this illness is the better. Cuz not knowing adds to the fear which feeds the DP. So don't freak out. Don't think about how long this might go on or how much worse it might get. It will do you no good. It will only get worse by thinking about it. Just try to accept it.

Like you said this may be stress induced. There's this book that helped me out, maybe you could take a look at it. It's called Power Over Panic by Lucinda Bassett. It talks about changing the way you think and dealing with stress and worries.

Many people have beat this so don't lose hope, you can beat it too.

Sorry so long.
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