I feel for you Imagine. At the beginning of this year I couldn't stand just existing - too scary, unreal, frightening etc. I couldn't function at all. More than three hours awake I was totally exhausted with massive head aches and chest pains. I just wanted it to end. Please hang in there and try to get some sleep. Do the one thing that you use to do that made you feel great. Even if it is for a couple of minutes or even seconds. The emotional pain is too much to handle sometimes but you have no choice but to hang in there until you feel relatively better. It's not fair, I know, but you must keep going. Keep posting.