[livinginhell333]

really i can't stand it anymore. i can't smell things or appreciate taste's of food, cuz it seems like i really don't taste the food anymore. it sucks. i got a cat scan, but that came back normal, but i think i ruined some sort of olfactory nerves, because i banged my head on the wall a few times kinda hard.

i heard minor head trauma can mess up the smelling and taste nerves, so maybe thats why i can't smell and another thing that has been bothering me is that i don't feel the music. i don't feel the vibration. i don't feel it in my soul, i just don't know if i'll get any of these things back, or get my life or at least feeling in my body back again. i don't think i will ever feel alive again. i've been trying to be patient and to pray, but its just not working.

 

[livinginhell333]

i'm not even sad and if i wanted to cry i couldn't cuz of the antidepressant i'm on, so now my feelings is that i'm just tired of this s*it. i'm not even frustrated, maybe deep down inside. i'm just tired and physically mentally and emotionally numb and just not here, if i don't get better soon i don't even know what i will do.

 

[Guest]

me too man but i dont want to moan about it

 

[Guest]

What kind of a response was that Johnny "underscore" Utah???

To Living in Hell 333: Please don't feel alone. I have felt so bad that I have screamed at my family that I can't stand living like this and that they should kill me to stop me suffering. Ride the wave. It WILL pass.

 

[sebastian]

What kind of a response was that Johnny "underscore" Utah???

i don't know why i found it so funny that you wrote down the "underscore" part, but i was in hysterics. Guess it shows my own fragile mental state as well.

livinghell333: Firstly, regarding the smells, if you're certain that you can't smell anything and aren't just imagining it, it could be something as simple as alergies. My step father can't smell or taste anything and it's because of his alergies. Not trying to reduce your situation to something without knowing anything about you but just throwing it out as a suggestion.

Also, i don't know what to say except to say that this will all pass. I plan on writing my own recovery story here soon but i'll tell you, i know how bad it can get. I really, truly do. I know this isn't the most inspiring post, but i'm in a bit of a rush right now, but all i can say is it does get better. Remarkably so.

s.

 

[Guest]

What kind of a response was that Johnny "underscore" Utah???

To Living in Hell 333: Please don't feel alone. I have felt so bad that I have screamed at my family that I can't stand living like this and that they should kill me to stop me suffering. Ride the wave. It WILL pass.

Was it something you didn't want to hear? If thats the case too bad

 

[agentcooper]

johnny, i've heard you "moan about it" just as hard as anyone here, and i've only been here for a month or so...why else do you come to this forum except to get and give support?

 

[Kelson12]

me too man but i dont want to moan about it

Johnny, why do you even post on here??? I mean, why would you even say this in response to someone? Last I heard this was a SUPPORT board and you're responding with something like this? I sense that you are frustrated with how you feel and feel that being sarcastic to others will make you feel better. Grow up.

 

[Guest]

me too man but i dont want to moan about it

Johnny, why do you even post on here??? I mean, why would you even say this in response to someone? Last I heard this was a SUPPORT board and you're responding with something like this? I sense that you are frustrated with how you feel and feel that being sarcastic to others will make you feel better. Grow up.

listen fuck you ok? I didnt mean it in a bad way, you just took it that way. What i was saying was that i dont want to moan about it, it wasn't an insult to living in hell, im just stating that i dont want to, meaning me! ok? now fuck off you pu$$y

 

[Kelson12]

me too man but i dont want to moan about it

Johnny, why do you even post on here??? I mean, why would you even say this in response to someone? Last I heard this was a SUPPORT board and you're responding with something like this? I sense that you are frustrated with how you feel and feel that being sarcastic to others will make you feel better. Grow up.

listen f--- you ok? I didnt mean it in a bad way, you just took it that way. What i was saying was that i dont want to moan about it, it wasn't an insult to living in hell, im just stating that i dont want to, meaning me! ok? now f--- off you pu$$y

^^^^ :shock:

 

[bat]

a bit of moaning might help limit angry outbursts