I can’t do this anymore

I cry all day in fear that it won’t go away and I’m at my breaking point I think. Iv never felt this hopeless. This has made me so depressed and in the past paxil has saved me but it’s been almost a month and it’s not helping at all with anything ( I’m not sure if it’s because I’m pregnant or what ) I don’t want to live like this anymore. I read the dp manual and he said if you beat it once you should never have it again ( this is my third time ) which scared me not helped me. He also said you need to go out and do exactly what you did before this, I can’t do that I can literally barely leave my bed. If I can’t get better from my house I don’t see how I will ever get better. I got better the last time within a month without leaving the house but the paxil also worked then. Also last time I did better and night but this time is when I get really upset and cry for hours feeling hopeless my life was literally as close to perfect as possible and this is ruining it. I can’t take care of a new born like this, I won’t. I won’t feel like he’s mine or that it’s my life I’m finally able to live