If it has happend... and it havent changed for a looong time.. how it is ever possible to get back. And if it happened there was something really bad.. have to be because noone would be in this state out of free will..
its frustrtating i dont know wht im doing wrong and what im suppose to do!
I feel that im waiting dead to happen. its worst kind of living, every day im fearing it.. but heres just nothing i can do