[Derealizedboy1213]

Have you ever thought about what you actually want?

Like deep down, on a primal level. The kind of things that you wouldn't dare say out loud because of how much shame and embarrassment is tied to it or how petty it feels.

Of course, we all want to heal. Thats a given, but what about those unconscious desires that really run the show. the stuff that really motivates you to ACT NOW. Have you ever thought about those thoughts?

For me, I think i've always just wanted people to respect me and I wanted to feel loved or like people care about me. I wanted my son to look up to me and respect me.

When I realized the reason I was doing the things I was doing, I instantly felt an emotional release and a sense of control.

You should try it.

Think about it, and then please type it here. don't hold back. I know it's scary, but you're anonymous. Sharing these things is often cathartic and will lead to a big emotional release that will make you feel 10x better instantly.

 

[dpdrhaver184]

I want to be able to fucking cry. I have plenty of cry about but have never been able to cry for a whole year. I've tried very hard but can never do it.

 

[coolwhip27]

I want to be who I’m meant to be, I’d have a lot more to give if I didn’t struggle for no fucking reason other than my own thought perpetuating itself in motion until it becomes overwhelmed with everything it’s thinking about. Oh, and then the DP that comes after. It really makes life feel like a sick joke, afterall the beauty is right in front of you always, even while you feel stripped of all life on the inside

 

[Dragoon909]

I would like to have my emotions back. And to feel like a human being.

 

[Samzone]

I want to start living up to my own standards and make the people who believe in me proud. I’m ashamed of myself and how i let myself go. I used to be fit and very athletic person and now I’m 40 pounds overweight. That might not seem a lot for some ppl, but when you are studying to become a healthcare professional, its definetly not ideal and not the image I want to project.

I used to be the life of my social circle with many friends and people wanting to hang out with me but I started isolating myself and now only got a small handful of friends I barely talk to.

I used to be a motivated person, constantly willing to try new things and meet new people. Now i‘m scared of everything.

I firmly believe that i‘ve hit a wall now. Its the cause of why i’m in this state of constant anxiety and dpdr. I’m living so far below my own standards and where i see myself, constantly disappointing myself, that now my subconscious is acting out.

Truth of the matter is and why I’m here; I have an addiction(not drugs) and addictions masks your needs and lowers your motivation to do the things you should be doing. You can go a long while, being fine with not living up to your own standards and ignoring your needs, but at some point you hit a wall and realize your inner self is in agony. The addiction can only make up for your needs and ambitions for so long and ive hit that wall once again.

 

[Rolah]

I want to have a full life filled with close friend and family. I want a purposeful existence where I utilize my full talents to inspire and create change in the world that makes it better and that helps people. I want to be able to exist in my body comfortably and feel safe inside my own home and inside my skin. To be able to sleep with full relaxation like I used to. I want to grow into myself and be sufficiently stable, courageous, independent, and alive. I really want to be alive. I really want to re-enter life. The sunlight, to feel it again.

I want the stars to align and all the past to be a bad dream.

 

[Dragoon909]

I want to have a full life filled with close friend and family. I want a purposeful existence where I utilize my full talents to inspire and create change in the world that makes it better and that helps people. I want to be able to exist in my body comfortably and feel safe inside my own home and inside my skin. To be able to sleep with full relaxation like I used to. I want to grow into myself and be sufficiently stable, courageous, independent, and alive. I really want to be alive. I really want to re-enter life. The sunlight, to feel it again.

I want the stars to align and all the past to be a bad dream.

I remember sleeping with full relaxation. Something I haven't done in months.

The feeling of being safe and sound.

 

[ameliaaria]

I remember sleeping with full relaxation. Something I haven't done in months.

The feeling of being safe and sound.

The things that I do to improve my sleep are regular sleep schedule and practicing relaxation techniques, such as deep breathing and meditation, before going to bed.

 

[Dragoon909]

The things that I do to improve my sleep are regular sleep schedule and practicing relaxation techniques, such as deep breathing and meditation, before going to bed.

Yeah, I have been doing alot of deep breathing this morning. I woke up extremely anxious, but slept a good 6 or 7 hours.

I'm not so good with meditation at the time...too anxious. Hopefully I can meditate more in the future.

Hey Amelia,
You ever feel unsafe? Just an uncomfortable feeling while trying to sleep?

 

[ebann413]

I want to have a full relationship with God again where I can hear His voice. I want to feel alive again inside and be able to feel my emotions, even sadness. Anything but apathy and indifference. I want to be the man I know my girlfriend deserves and be the future husband I know she needs. I want to be able to use my voice again and have curious thoughts about things around me and socialize with my friends again! I want to live not die