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How do I feel again

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Ever since pretty much getting over my anxious thoughts and feelings of DPDR I’ve noticed that I feel and think nothing anymore. I walk around all day like a robot, with no single emotion or thought passing by. It’s extremely frustrating because it’s hard to commit to getting back the thoughts and emotions when it’s blank in my brain. It’s good in a way because I’m able to interact with others and do more things, but it’s never genuine and mostly just an automatic response. I don’t know if it could be that now without DPDR I have nothing else to think about, or if it’s part of DP-symptoms. It’s difficult to even write this because I can’t put a thought together, like my inner monologue is gone. Every thought I have is literally just forced. I’m happy sometimes but usually there’s nothing going on in my head. I don’t feel like myself at all. My strategy so far has been to just go on as I usually would, but it doesn’t help at all, if anything it feeds onto the whole robotic feeling. I’m really scared that I’ll be stuck like this forever, not experiencing anything that’s happening just physically being here. Also been scared that some day my thoughts will disappear entirely and that I won’t be myself anymore. Has anyone else felt this way too and gotten rid of it?
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Feeling exactly the same and have been for probably a good 6 months or so. Still think it was antidepressants in my case that caused it and triggered some kind of dr/dp. Felt numb on them but it magnified 1000x once I stopped and to this day still there. I thought it was getting better and cognitively I improved massively but just recently had some stress kind of the only thing I can slightly feel and I seem to have mentally “disappeared” again.

no automatic though process.
Can’t feel anything at all emotion wise or bodily sensation.
Can’t access my brain. I’m 2 eyes looking out and that’s pretty much it.
Bored and uncomfortable 24/7.

it’s truly hell and I just want out
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