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How do I feel again

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Ever since pretty much getting over my anxious thoughts and feelings of DPDR I’ve noticed that I feel and think nothing anymore. I walk around all day like a robot, with no single emotion or thought passing by. It’s extremely frustrating because it’s hard to commit to getting back the thoughts and emotions when it’s blank in my brain. It’s good in a way because I’m able to interact with others and do more things, but it’s never genuine and mostly just an automatic response. I don’t know if it could be that now without DPDR I have nothing else to think about, or if it’s part of DP-symptoms. It’s difficult to even write this because I can’t put a thought together, like my inner monologue is gone. Every thought I have is literally just forced. I’m happy sometimes but usually there’s nothing going on in my head. I don’t feel like myself at all. My strategy so far has been to just go on as I usually would, but it doesn’t help at all, if anything it feeds onto the whole robotic feeling. I’m really scared that I’ll be stuck like this forever, not experiencing anything that’s happening just physically being here. Also been scared that some day my thoughts will disappear entirely and that I won’t be myself anymore. Has anyone else felt this way too and gotten rid of it?
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I feel this way, have I got ridden of it? For short amounts of time I have but the automation always comes back. It’s chronic DP. Im having a really hard time even typing this, going back and forth deleting and rewriting. I’ve had small moments where I do feel alive, otherwise it all feels automated, with a lack of knowing what I’m thinking. I wish I was in touch with myself again too. Im sorry you struggle with this lost. My utmost empathy goes out to you, simply because I know what it’s like..
Thank you so much for the reply. I’m relieved that I’m not the only one, but of course I’m also sorry that you have to go through this too. Have you been dealing with it for a long time? And if you don’t mind me asking, is your DP triggered by anything specific or have you always just felt this way?
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