Depersonalization Support Forum banner
1 - 5 of 5 Posts

·
Registered
Joined
·
144 Posts
Discussion Starter · #1 ·
Ever since pretty much getting over my anxious thoughts and feelings of DPDR I’ve noticed that I feel and think nothing anymore. I walk around all day like a robot, with no single emotion or thought passing by. It’s extremely frustrating because it’s hard to commit to getting back the thoughts and emotions when it’s blank in my brain. It’s good in a way because I’m able to interact with others and do more things, but it’s never genuine and mostly just an automatic response. I don’t know if it could be that now without DPDR I have nothing else to think about, or if it’s part of DP-symptoms. It’s difficult to even write this because I can’t put a thought together, like my inner monologue is gone. Every thought I have is literally just forced. I’m happy sometimes but usually there’s nothing going on in my head. I don’t feel like myself at all. My strategy so far has been to just go on as I usually would, but it doesn’t help at all, if anything it feeds onto the whole robotic feeling. I’m really scared that I’ll be stuck like this forever, not experiencing anything that’s happening just physically being here. Also been scared that some day my thoughts will disappear entirely and that I won’t be myself anymore. Has anyone else felt this way too and gotten rid of it?
 

·
Registered
Joined
·
46 Posts
I feel this way, have I got ridden of it? For short amounts of time I have but the automation always comes back. It’s chronic DP. Im having a really hard time even typing this, going back and forth deleting and rewriting. I’ve had small moments where I do feel alive, otherwise it all feels automated, with a lack of knowing what I’m thinking. I wish I was in touch with myself again too. Im sorry you struggle with this lost. My utmost empathy goes out to you, simply because I know what it’s like.
 

·
Registered
Joined
·
144 Posts
Discussion Starter · #3 ·
I feel this way, have I got ridden of it? For short amounts of time I have but the automation always comes back. It’s chronic DP. Im having a really hard time even typing this, going back and forth deleting and rewriting. I’ve had small moments where I do feel alive, otherwise it all feels automated, with a lack of knowing what I’m thinking. I wish I was in touch with myself again too. Im sorry you struggle with this lost. My utmost empathy goes out to you, simply because I know what it’s like..
Thank you so much for the reply. I’m relieved that I’m not the only one, but of course I’m also sorry that you have to go through this too. Have you been dealing with it for a long time? And if you don’t mind me asking, is your DP triggered by anything specific or have you always just felt this way?
 

·
Registered
Joined
·
46 Posts
Thank you so much for the reply. I’m relieved that I’m not the only one, but of course I’m also sorry that you have to go through this too. Have you been dealing with it for a long time? And if you don’t mind me asking, is your DP triggered by anything specific or have you always just felt this way?
I was going to say the same thing, that I’m relieved I’m not the only one. Sometimes I think it’s caused by my thoughts or subconscious and I try to change it, so I guess the trigger is just becoming aware of my own thinking. Then all of a sudden I’m trying too hard to think or something and then I can’t, it’s all really difficult to describe. My brain gets wrapped in circles.

I also have OCD, and I kind of believe it’s what triggers my DP. These different forms of intrusive thoughts trigger me.. I’m not sure how it is for you. I know that you are looking for insight into this stuff, and that’s good. I don’t want to tell you to just learn to live with it, because you never do. I would rather tell you that you should not obsess over it. It’s about the only thing you can do. Thanks for replying aswell, this kind of made my day tbh. The thought of being the only one really messes me up
 

·
Registered
Joined
·
6 Posts
Feeling exactly the same and have been for probably a good 6 months or so. Still think it was antidepressants in my case that caused it and triggered some kind of dr/dp. Felt numb on them but it magnified 1000x once I stopped and to this day still there. I thought it was getting better and cognitively I improved massively but just recently had some stress kind of the only thing I can slightly feel and I seem to have mentally “disappeared” again.

no automatic though process.
Can’t feel anything at all emotion wise or bodily sensation.
Can’t access my brain. I’m 2 eyes looking out and that’s pretty much it.
Bored and uncomfortable 24/7.

it’s truly hell and I just want out
 
1 - 5 of 5 Posts
Top