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How did you get DP/DR?
Drugs (cannabis, alcohol, opiates, etc)4233.87%
Psychological/emotional trauma3729.84%
Neurological causes/conditions43.23%
Head trauma00.00%
Comorbid mental illness/symptom of other mental illness1411.29%
Other64.84%
Unsure/don't know2116.94%
 

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At 17, I smoked cannabis. My first sensation was a jerking movement and stabbing pain in my stomach, followed by a sickly smoky sensation that rose into my chest and made my heart beat wildly. It was accompanied by a sensation of impending doom.

The smoky sensation continued upward into my head and made it tingle all over. Over the next minute or two, my vision lost the ability to track motion. I was seeing the world as a slide show, with lengthening periods of time between each picture frame, which

I could not account for. The tingling in my head gathered to the size of a golf ball, and located to the left front of my head. The right side of my head went cold and numb. It was as if a line had been sketched right down the middle of my head. The tingling

mass slowly marched to the left rear of my head. I felt as if I were being water boarded as I struggled for snippets of consciousness in conjunction with my framing vision. Then, the tingling mass began to tense like an old watch spring being wound. The

tension increased for 4 or 5 seconds, then it discharged in a jolt of electrical energy which convulsed my mind and also my vision. Suddenly, it appeared as if I were looking through the wrong end of binoculars. My focus zoomed away and things became

very small, as if at the far end of a long tunnel. The tensing and zooming continued on intervals of 5 seconds for upwards of 3 minutes. When it subsided, I was never the same. I would not understand what had transpired for 40 years. I would believe the neuro psych

trauma I experienced was to be blamed on cannabis. But, my cannabis intoxication had an unexpected visitor. I now know the beginning was an "epigastric aura" of a temporal lobe seizure. The tensing and releasing were epileptic discharges. What followed was post ictal psychosis

which segued into an affective disorder of recurring major depression. The visual hallucinations I experienced have a name which can be found on Wiki. It comes from a cinematic effect in which a camera is mounted on a dolly and

traversed quickly. Ergo "dolly zoom". I gleaned the facts of my experience from British Neurological Texts and Journals I discovered on line. (At age 55,) My experience was "a worst case scenario". No US neurologist or doctor or mental health therapist could enlighten me.

I developed a mild head tremor. I experienced frequent ocular migraines. I suffered many more milder seizures. I survived several more major depressive episodes. I am deemed to have "significant pathology" in my left temporal lobe, based on EEG results. I expected that from my

symptoms when I ordered the EEG. It took the fun out of most of my adult life. Actually, it almost killed me on several occasions. I did have to work harder at life than I had ever intended. But, all is well that ends well and in 100 years it will have made no difference.
 

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I never actually really have known why...So I put it down to a bunch of different things like Drug Use, A tough insecure childhood, Bullying at school, Bullying at work, Alcohol abuse etc etc etc..............I was basically pre disposed to anxiety was very insecure with low self esteem and as a result was a prime candidate for this condition..........

I gave up a long time ago trying to figure out what caused it for the simple fact that knowing what caused it isnt going to cure it...

Its the same as knowing your cancer was caused by smoking....Your still left with the cancer...

Im more interested in what keeps it away nowadays to be honest....Meds, stress management, extra rest etc etc.........
 

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Its a pretty hard question for me since I got DP after the most terryfying traumatic experience I could possible imagine on a bad LSD trip. It could be either drug- or trauma induced in this case since both happened on the same day.
While I got hospitalized still tripping I got administered Lorazepam to get me to calm down and I just slept through the remainder of the experience. Ive been speculating that the interaction of the Lorazepam with the LSD while me being asleep might have also been a factor.
I doubt there would be any interaction between the two, as they likely work on different areas of the brain. It would be interesting to know for sure though. I often wonder myself if combining synthetic recreational drugs and an SSRI did anything in my case. But what we used alone recreationally can cause the same things.
 

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I really don't know. I think I experienced it a few times in my early teenage years though I remember when I was scuba diving in January of 2017 I felt it there. Fucking terrifying 10 meters underwater.
April of 2017 I had a very bad reaction to some bud. Was genuinely convinced I was dying, hallucinating and I couldn't feel my skin. The next day things were off, but after that, it seemed to go away

and I was handling things just fine. Though from there, things slowly went downhill, and I got derealization (never depersonalization though). September of 2017 was when it began to really make an

impact on my life, and by December of last year, I wasn't leaving the house at all. Only recently I'm now experiencing depersonalization and my god it is fucking scary... I really don't know what caused it.

I think it was the weed, but it could be something else too. I am so lost. I just want my life back.
 

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I got bullied at work too....it was horrible. And I worked in a mental health team!!
That doesn't surprise me at all. Psychiatry basically began on the theory that certain people need to be bullied, harassed, and brain damaged into changing their behavior. Sure, the field has advanced to having some medical legitimacy in recent years, but it's not fundamentally a different institution.
 

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I've had DPD since I was a kid. There are big chunks of my childhood that I can't remember.

I know from what other family members have told me that my mother was emotionally abusive towards me (she was also mentally unstable) and neglected me since I was a baby. I remember witnessing some pretty bad fights between my parents too, some of them involving my mother physically threatening my father. I have also been told that both my mother and my grandmother (her mother) threatened to kill themselves in front of me.

I also didn't have a great relationship with my father and his mother, often having arguments that would escalate to them shouting at me for the smallest issues and me spacing out as I didn't feel like there was anything I could do, so I would go quiet and that would irritate them even more.

That combined with moving countries when I was a kid, having to learn new languages, being bullied at school and just not really fitting in turned out to be the perfect recipe for DPD. I also developed some disordered eating in my teens, self-harmed and was depressed, all of which either stemmed from my DPD or made it worse.
 

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Very good question. I'm still not sure I was a couple months from turning 25 I am now 28. About 3 and a half years though it has improved aloglt, Child neglect, not fitting in, too much death at an early age, rejection,shamed for wanting to see my half sister, actually shamed for alot of crap sudden breakup after 6 years (she tried Molly and left me for her dealer) weed, too much alcohol depression after breakup feelings of not being good enough, anxiety, which led to pbisical sensations, which led to health anxiety, which led to Google, which led to multiple panic attacks daily, Inposture syndrome at job I hate. Pressure of not losing a job because my family was Leaning on me financially. 40 thousand dollar school debt tons of hospital bills due to anxiety Wow I never realized all the crap I was gong thru. No wonder I have dp.
 

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From smoking cannabis, which cause me a really hard trip. The next day I then watched videos about how others experience trips and a video about stages of ego death. I felt extremely anxious and started having panic attacks. This attack goes on for 5 days straight and turned into a major episode of depression which then lasted for 3 months. During which time, everything collapses before me and I began having DP/DR, several mental collapses/breakdowns, and unstoppable existential thoughts aaaaaaand things are never the same again.
 

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I first started having DP/DR episodes when I was 13 years old. I was bullied, intorverted and shy and had low self esteem. I also had some strange thoughts about eating and depression as well as anxiety. then one day in january right after my 13th birthday I got sick. I was running a high fever. I remember we had a large snow and my mom and dad wasn't able to get me to a doctor and an ambulance wasn't able to come get me cause I lived in eastern Kentucky and in the country so the roads wasn't great to begin with. So basically mom did what she could to keep the fever down. Then one day I woke up and I felt stuffed. like my body was dead. People's faces were smudged and I felt like the world was a dream. I begged my mom and dad to help me but nobody knew what was wrong. they took me to several doctors but nobody knew what was wrong with me. Finally, a doctor put me in the hospital and for a month they tested me and tried several medications. They put me on Tegretol sent me home with a diagnosis of epilepsy and I proceeded to try and deal. I had a very hard teenage years. I married when I was 18 and left home. My symptoms got better after I had my first baby and for years I was symptom free. I don't think I had epilepsy to begin with. the neurologist I saw a couple of years ago when my "symptoms" returned said I was misdiagnosed and I did not have epilepsy. I seeked help with psychologists and did some research on my own and that is how I figured out I had DP/DRD. I"m still floundering. I am changing mental health professionals as the one I have has no idea what he is doing and cannot help me. I don't feel any hope that things will change for me. It feels like I am just going deeper down the rabbit hole with each passing day and I think that eventually I'll disappear. That makes my anxiety worse. I don't think I will ever see the real world again. my appointment with my new doctor is next month. time will tell.
 
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