[Jigoku]

He talks about writing about your past, writing "As if" letters to those who abused/neglected you. He talks about writing your life story, a coherent narrative that focuses on your emotional needs. Okay, I'm down to do all that.. but how am I supposed to do anything if I feel cut off from myself, memories, and emotions? As Pete Walker writes in his book, "Dissociation deadens verbal ventiliation." So if I'm dissociated there's nothing I can do.. my mind is just blank and I have no emotions. I've been exercising/eating healthy/getting good sleep for the past 3 1/2 weeks and I definitely feel less tired and numb so maybe I just have to keep going at it idk. I'm planning on taking nootropics like lions mane/ cordyceps/ rhodiola/ bacopa/ uridine+alpha gpc/ racetams to increase memory and promote neurogenesis. I've been pretty productive this November in trying to live the hunter gatherer lifestyle and I'm pretty proud of my progress. If I do this for 2 months+ and nothing happens I'd be pretty disappointed.

Therapy is definitely pointless/a waste of money if I'm chronically dissociated. So how did Harris Harrington apply his methods while in DP/DR? He says he started writing an "as if" letter to his Dad in a cafe and he couldn't stop shaking as he was writing it. Well I can open a word document and start typing, "To Mom," but then my mind is just blank. He doesn't talk about using drugs and he says to exercise, eat healthy, practice relaxation/meditation, get enough sleep. So how long did he do this for? Am I just being impatient? I know brain changes take time but maybe I need the help of psychedelics or an opioid antagonist.

 

[Broken]

Hey dude, intersting read this. Like the idea of 'as if' letters actually.. didn't gain much from HH but might try that. Also, lions mane is a GOOD IDEA in my opinion. Also trying cordyceps tomoz and have been on alpha gpc which was good. ALSO, I am trying to get hold of magic mushrooms to microdose. So all in all, sounds like we got a very similar approach

 

[Phantasm]

Sometimes changes are subtle and happen below your level or awareness, at first anyway. The more dissociated you are the harder it can be to see how exercises like this can help, but my advice would be to do them anyway and in time you may start noticing a difference. If you find your mind is blank, I'd just write anything that comes up in a conversational fashion as if talking to that person, and then you might tap into something you really want to say.

 

[sekhmet]

He probably just waited it out like most people - all that other stuff was just to keep him occupied during that time. Now he can peddle all sorts of snake oil and pretend he's a big expert.

Most likely, you'll be fine too soon enough, you just have to wait. Exercise and keeping healthy couldn't hurt either