[TiredAndExhausted]

This is so much stressful. I get overwhelmed with intense waves of guilt and panic that I don't really have a soul or a center, or something that I genuinely love that makes me "me" like... I get anxiety as I analyze my life til now and I fear like I Always acted as an observer in my mind, someone who contemplates situations and ideas and just love to be admired, or watched from outside. When I get a hobby or a passion, or everything, it's like I care most about I get perceived that just caring about what I'm experiencing this makes me freaks out, I don't wanna feel like a monster or like there's something wrong with me.. everytime I use to like/love something or someone, or get pain or everything I feel like I have to dig deeper and analyze the real patterns and intentions in me, how I function inside.. it's hard to explain, I fear I Always had something fucked up about me and never acknowledged

 

[Johqnnq]

I feel like im not a human at all.. And im just focused on my thought process or some part of my body.. I feel like heres something which pushes.. Like it feels pressure on my head.. I feel like everything im thinking is real. I feel like im different persons in my head. Like somehow i have to just be. And heres noway out. Then i hear like someone knows everything im thinking. I know all of this comes from my brokennees.. And depression

 

[Chip1021]

I've always felt like I don't have a soul either, or if I do, it's hidden somewhere deep down inside me and I can't readily access it.

As to how to cope with it, I'm not exactly sure. Right now my energies are focused on trying to get my brain to function well enough that I can work and move out of my parents' house, though I don't know if I need to figure out the soul thing first because how can I work with people if I can't relate to them like normal people do? It's just an endless "chicken or egg" situation that doesn't seem to have any solution.

 

[Luke1414]

Everyone you will be fine, I felt like this for a few weeks but eventually got bored of panicking and I no longer have dp 24/7. I only feel it lightly when I do get it. The best way to relieve the symptoms is to immerse yourself in a hobby of some sort