I’ve been disassociated for over a decade . Induced by multiple emotional trauma . I couldn’t break free . Tried every med , did ECt , lots of cognitive insight, knew it but couldn’t break free . This might sound goofy but I full on begged GOD to help . I’ve done that many many many times through the years . But this time my answer was another UTI. When to an urgent care clinic who also had a sub clinic in hormone balancing / optimization. Decided to try it . As i apparently had none - no testosterone- no estrogen. Wow inside of a few weeks I started to wake up . I’m still in awe of being awake . I’m fully ( mostly ) aware of the last 10 years - but I’m connected again . I’m still in literal AWE and I’m thanking the lord for the direction he nudged me towards .