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Hi im new to this board, my names Shawn and i had some questions that i was wandering if anyone could answer.......... i goto a mental health place were i have a counseler that i talk to once a month and ive been diagnosed with depression, derealization, and anxiety, im taking 30mg of paxil a day now since i tried to kill my self a couple months ago with 20 20mg paxils and 8 nyquil gelcaps. but what i wanted to ask you is if anyone knows exactly what this is, its like when ever i go outside and walk anywere or do anything it feels like i have a big cloud of fog in my head, or like im on some kind of drug but im not it just seems like everything is not there, and i dont show emotions anymore towards my family or anyone really, i have pretty bad memory for being only 22, i sometimes cant remember alot of things or if i took my medicine that day. i havent been into drugs a whole lot ive done acid twice in my life and smoked weed thats it, my anxiety did come from the weed i know sometimes i could get high and enjoy it other times i would just wig out or thing i was gonna die (this was before the depression). and when i took acid both times i was tripping by myself for 8 hours and the walls were melting, and i was tasting colors and stuff but i didnt flip out at all like i did when i had smoked weed, i was fine really, does any of this sound like depersonalization or derealization to you or something else? can anyone help me out thanks.....
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the foggyness and the lack of being able to relate to emotions or people or the external enviroment sounds like depersonlisation symptoms.
 

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Hello Aphex Twin (one of my favourite musicians!).

What you are describing are classic DR and DP symptoms. It is certainly possible that your problems have come from taking acid and weed. It did with me, and a lot of other people here. If DR/DP your main symptom, or is it depression/anxiety, or all of them?

If you have been taking Paxil for a while and it's not helping, I'd suggest going back to your doctor and perhaps changing to some other medication. Everyones brain chemistry is different, and sometimes it takes a while to find the medication that suits you. Cipramil (Celexa) is probably the most widely prescribed, as it is well tolerated, but seems to have little impact on DR/DP itself, although it works well for depression and anxiety. Another is Efexxor (Venflaxetine), but it has a rather nasty withdrawal profile - but it is very effective for depression. And of course, there are Benzodiazepine drugs, which the most 'popular' being Clonazepam (Klonopin), which are certainly effective in relieving most neurotic complaints, but in the short term only, and again, of course, there are problems with potential addiction.

Anyway, drugs are only part of the answer. You need to find out what is causing your DR/DP - get to the root, find out what the 'trigger' is.

Best of luck. Don't lose hope. I, and many others, have recovered.
 
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Thanks for the friendly advice, its just sometimes i hit rock bottom when it comes to depression, and you know the wierd thing with acid is thats when i really had recently started listening to it 5 years ago when i took the acid, i remember first getting into the music and listening to it for 8 hours striaght when i tripped on my pc, and believe it or not i could still "brealy" talk to my friend on IM on 2 hits of acid on my first trip. But back to the discussion i think that when i was on acid it somehow programmed my brain because like all i mainly wanna listen to is electronic stuff like house drum and bass and ambient i can sit and zone out for quite a while listening to the music, ive been to about 30 partys in over 5yrs and not once have i went to one on any drug except weed on an outdoor event.... unlike others who lose there minds and get there brains eating away by "rolls". I also hear voices everyonce in a while inside my head like real distinct voices or a man or a woman not my own.. it doesent happen to often, and when im at my pc and focused on something it seems like my foggyheadness and out of it feeling isnt that bad because im having something to focus on.... but like i said whenever i go out anywere outside of my house or even just away from my computer i feel so freaking out of it, someone posted a movie link on the msg board about "walking life" so i downloaded it, that movie is crazy and i dont get alot of the concepts but they are very intersting and the way the movie is done is exactly how i see the world compared to what most others see.....who else is seen it and can relate
 

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Welcome. I don't think it matters how many times you've done a drug, some people are just unlucky (most of the people here). Dp/dr can be the result of other things too... mine isn't drug induced, maybe drug-intensified. I know a trip wasn't what you were looking for at the time - but stay away from dxm at all costs. Dxm, dp and dr are not friends. Sorry you have to be here.
 
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