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Hello everybody and Happy new year!

I have been suffering from anxiety/panic attacks since June this year, and this illness has got progressively worse, and I have had moments of dettachment, and more recently derealisation, feeling like Im not really here. I now have extreme anxiety and rarely go out of the house as I always feel unreal and detach sometimes. I am tense and don't enjoy anything. These last few days have been the worst, I almost feel like Im going to disappear and fade away, and my biggest fear is of a more serious mental illness or something worse.

I am not on any meds at the moment, although I am seriously thinking of taking an SSRI to help with the anxiety, I need to be able to go back to work soon as money is running out!

I will post my full story later, but I guess I am after some reassurance and company, Im so stressed and tense I can't feel anything

Thanks

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hi siguk

happy new year :)
i take an ssri and find that it helps alot. when i started it it increased anxiety for a couple of weeks and i took a tranquilizer to help me through that part. i stopped the tranquilizer as soon as i could. i'm working full time and have a good quality of life at the minute.
i also take alot of supplements and hope to wean off the ssri in the next few months.
i'm sure you will find something that helps you. best of luck
 
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Hi Sig,Happy New Year to you

Sorry to hear you are not doing so well.
Panic and anxiety can be accompanied by derealisation and or depersonalisation.
Being afraid to leave the house is understandable.
The feelings of detachment can seem so much more scary when you are away from the safety of your home.
I've been there too.Some days I still am.

It might be worth consideriing seeing a psychiatrist.SSRI's have helped a lot of people here.

wishing you all the best
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Hey Siguk

Sounds like you will fit in well here. Post any questions you have because this thing can be beaten.

Hang in there,
Ken
 
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Hey sig. You aren't alone, and you'll find plenty of advice here to get you through the tough situation you are in. Sounds like you just got it, and we'll help you find the strength to recover.
 
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Thanks everyone,

These last few days have been tough, and I have a packet of SSRI with me here, the anxiety is too much now so I will take them starting today.

God this thing is hell to live with, it really is straining on my family relationship because I just keep searching for answers to this stupid illness, as I now know what it is, but it seems to make my anxiety worse.
All I keep thinking is that I will be with this forever!!!

It started 5mths ago, I had a huge panic attack in the car after a heavy weekend in Germany, everything was fine after I had two doctors check me over in the hospital. I actually then moved to Germany and panic and anxiety stayed away. I then had both my parents re-marry that summer and had to fly back for their marriages, both me and my Girlfriend fly home to England for my Mothers wedding and we had four cancelled flights, and were exhausted, together with a terriost scare at the airport trying to leave England was the last straw, she was having panic attacks, and we both flipped out, she wanted to go home and I wanted to go home, so in the middle of a london airport we both separated, she took a cancelled flight to Germany, and I was so scared I took a taxi!!! at ?200!!! home. Ever since that day anxiety/panic and now dp/dr have taken over my life!! Sorry to go on, but it feels good the let everything out in words!!

Im considering a shrink, but dont have a huge amount of money to play with, so I am going to attempt CBT on the 13th, and see how that works

Thanks for listening

Sig
 
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Sig,

First off "Happy New Year"... Second off I had the exact same thing happen to me. So has pretty much everyone on here. I had my episodes happen last year December. My advice to you is DON'T take any SSRI's!!!! They have horrible side effects and in the long run will only make you self reliant on them. Not to mention if you miss taking one or run out of them on a weekend you will go into major withdrawl. That is some scary shit to deal with. Now the good news.. This can get better, infact I am at 80% recovery and I have only had DP/DR for 1 year and a month. DON'T stay in your house LEAVE your house and force yourself to go outside. At first it will suck major shit YATA YATA .. but you have to do it. STOP drinking coffee and eating chocolate all that. Start eating a lot of vegtables drink tons of water and most importantly KNOW that this is not harmful you can not die from this and you have no major disease. Find a natural way of healing this you will thank me in the long run. Perscribed meds can even sometimes make this worse then it first was. Doctors know NOTHING about DP/DR so them perscribing you meds will be trial and error. My advice is try taking St.Johns Wart and Omega 3 pills that you can get at any nutrition store. The minute I stopped taking meds and delt with it naturally the better I became. SSRI's have FAR to many BAD side effects that can effect your daily life. The side effects can be ... severe tiredness... loss of sexual drive... sleep problems... small panic attacks... mood swings the list goes on. If you don't believe me google search your SSRI and see what comes up. The best possible way to cure yourself is naturally with a touch of your own will power. Take it from me I had the WORST DP/DR it was almost crippling but I hung in there and I knew iI would get better. Just know the first step in curing this is knowing that this is nothing more then DP/DR. You don't have cancer you don't have a brain tumor ect. we all went through getting tested and came up with the same results NOTHING lol! So in knowing that know that you can control this it starts with you understanding that is all upstairs and you can fix it. I wish you all the best in the New Year ... and trust me when I say this you will be yourself 100% again. STOP taking the SSRI's and start taking care of this naturally. Again google search your SSRI and read about it before you start taking it. All the best and know that this is a battle you can win!!
 
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Sorry one last thing... Since your a guy this might help. When I first had this problem I found that playing video games would take the horrible feelings away. So when your start getting all ansy and scared turn on a video game and distract yourself. It worked for me I don't know how it would work for you but it is worth a shot. Again all the best in your battle.
 
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Hi Live2dream,

Many thanks for your reply, I said I was going to take the SSRI today, but bottled out, as I can't see how any pill will make me feel better long-term. The SSRI prescribed was citalopram by the way, don't know if you have heard of it?, anyway I have stopped drinking now, eventually, as I went out on the 23/12 got drunk and spent two whole days in bed on the edge of my mind! Was not a good idea in retrospect. In fact the night I had the first major panic attack drving in the car, I had a bad flight and was very hung over, German Beer is lethal :) I think alcohol had made me this way so have decided to have a whole year off drink. Problem is most of my mates all drink and smoke too much so socialising is hard for me. Not to mention the anxiety and dp when Im out.

I want to get a playstation as I love football games, I have started taking Omega 3 supplements, and I do feel some change although can't describe it. I am going to buy some St. Johns Wort and see how that works for me.

How did you improve your condition? are you now working?, because I have had four months off now and my anxeity is still very strong, I feel like I want to do all the things I used to, but the DP/DR and anxiety stop me and then I get depressed and around and around it goes. I want a job again, I have never been a person for staying in or watching loads of TV, now thats my life!!

Many thanks for your support, I will beat this condition somehow.

Sig
 
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Hey Sig!

Good to hear that your not taking SSRI's!! Your on your first step to recovery lol! If you notice people on this board that take the SSRI's they are trying to get off them ... so why start in the first place! (no offence to people taking them) I think that a playstation would help you out BIG time. It keeps you happy and distracted. How I got better is I stopped drinking heavily. I drink like once a week on the weekends. I make sure that when I do drink that I don't drink a TON and I watch my intake... easier said then done. I also started drinking A LOT of water like I said 2L a day. I changed my diet and started eating my greens. Also my friend got me into exercising I found that helped a lot. You have had this for about half a year so in some way your body should be adjusting to it. It is VERY good that you haven't taken any meds for this. Try taking a vitamin B and C combo it helps with anxiety. Make sure that you take just Omega 3 pills not a combo in a high concentrate and take them twice a day with food. Make sure you get atleast 8 hours of sleep a night. Lack of sleep is the biggest trigger for DP/DR. Don't drink excessive amounts of liquor cut back on it and you will see a HUGE difference. I have been told that alcohol can surface DP/DR so again large amounts will put you into severe DP/DR. DON'T EVER smoke weed... weed will make your anxiety SO severe it will be much more difficult to cure yourself. Weed is what caused mine I haven't smoked in over a year and continue to do so. I hope all that helps but most importantly find something that can distract you that is the key. Cheers!!
 
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live2dream said:
My advice to you is DON'T take any SSRI's!!!! My advice is try taking St.Johns Wart and Omega 3 pills that you can get at any nutrition store.
St John's Wort is virtually the same thing as any prescription SSRI.
 
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